Wednesday, February 13, 2013
These past couple of weeks have been the most stressful weeks of my college career. I have had so much to do and since I am in a practicum 4 days a week, there is not much time to do it all. I'm pretty much working full time, plus overtime, for free. So that is my life at the moment. This past week has been especially bad because I felt like I had no clue what I was doing. It's like I have been a social work major for 4 years yet I felt incompetent. It also doesn't help that my BIGGEST pet peeve EVER is feeling stupid. Therefore I am at my breaking point.
I felt the need to punch something. I was so upset about my eating habits, my lack of exercising, my grades, my time, my stress, my personal life, and my lack of competence that I was at my breaking point. Just a bad week. Tonight I MADE time for myself. I kickboxed like I never have before. I threw myself into the workout.
And I feel wonderful again.
I made some me time. Time where I did not have to think about school, work, boyfriends, friends, family, or anything else. Just focusing on what I was doing and imagining that I was kicking the hell out of all my problems when I kicked my foot in the air. I imagined that I was punching all of my problems straight in the face when I threw my fist. It was amazing.
Also I feel like I should write a letter to Jillian Michaels after this is all over. The woman is seriously an idol.