Working on balance
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Trying to function normally today after 3 hours of good sleep last night has convinced me that if I ever try to go back to a partying lifestyle, it will be a slow, painful road to ruin. Ugh ... how did I ever do that when I was young??? How was I all perky and annoying the next day? Oh yeah, annoying is easy for some of us!!! I am the perpetual morning person that most other people want to throttle til about noon!
I consider it one of my gifts!
This morning as I headed off to work I was very grateful that my mom was riding with me. I was soooooo tired I really could have nodded off on the drive in. Once I got there, things weren't peaceful today .... I mean in my spirit. I was fussy ... and critical ... and almost got in several arguments just to be "right". Argh ... I hate that!!! Power struggles are the VERY LEAST things I care to engage in. I finally went outside and sat in the sunshine for about 30 mins. I set about distracting myself by texting some of my friends and family which helped me get some loose ends tied up. Once back to work I was more settled and calm.
I wish that today was one of the days when people could have kept track of my mental argument with myself with the little conversation balloons above my head while I was on my workout! I knew I wanted to be OUTSIDE in the SUNSHINE! I had packed all of my gear to run today ... It's time for me to dive back in! Thinking about running yesterday gave me that weird energy buzz that I love! So, even though I was physically fatigued and mentally tired, I convinced myself to run! And I LOVED IT ... I had forgotten how much I love to push myself ... to go a little further ... to monitor that little transition from I can't breathe to I CAN! It felt good to pound the pavement and start to sweat .... Ahhhh ... running - how I have missed you!
After my run, I gathered up my mom and we headed how where I promptly crashed for almost 1 1/2 hours of hard sleep! I feel so much better now ... I feel normal, perky and ready to knock out SOME of my to-do list for today!