Wednesday, February 13, 2013
I stopped going to the gym for almost three months. I had lost so much weight that I went to see a surgeon about having a panniculectomy (skin removed and reshaped around lower abdomen). I was sent for all kinds of tests, including an EKG and the results of that came back, much to my astonishment, abnormal. Now, I was dumbfounded, The surgeon insisted that I see a cardiologist before he would operate to make sure my heart was up to the almost six-hour surgery. To make a long story short, I finally got an appointment with a cardiologist. I had an ultrasound of my heart and had to wear a Holter monitor for 48 hours to track my old ticker and how it was working. Apparently, it's not unusual for menopausal women to experience occasional palpitations and that's what was going on. So, the cardiologist cleared me for surgery. All this, however, took months and during those weeks, I was so afraid to go to the gym and not going to the gym made me pretty darned depressed and when I get depressed, I have a tendency to compulsively overeat. I am not as bad as I used to be, but nonetheless, I gained back more than 20 pounds in almost three months. I stepped on the scale this morning and nearly HAD A HEART ATTACK, which pretty much would have taken care of what I thought was my abyssmal situation :( But, I have come so far and I am not going to let this setback throw me totally off track. I have decided not to beat myself over this and suck it up, get back to the gym on a consistent basis, start eating well again and get back to it. My surgery will take place this summer, so I have the opportunity of losing as much as I can between now and August (when I imagine my surgery will be). I will get down to my goal weight this year. Not only that. I intend on staying there FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!!!