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Completely Disappointed in myself

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

I gained 5.9 lbs this week. Yep, weight up to 259.9. Oh there are all kinds of reasons and excuses but the fact is I gained.

I have 365 days to lose 70lbs to meet my goal and right now, after over 3.5 years on this journey I sincerely doubt I will even get out of this decade let alone into onederland.

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HARMONIUM 2/15/2013 12:24PM

    Hang in there. I know the impulse to pronounce oneself a failure too quickly. But you should reject that word and keep on keeping on.

It's not a straight-forward route. There are cut-backs and winding curves and cul-de-sacs from which one must reverse; the path can be serpentine, meandering, and circuitous. But every now and then you get a spate of direct, even miles when you make progress before you once again enter the cul-de-sac.

It remains well worth it not to get discouraged and to keep on trying. You are not a failure!

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EXOTEC 2/14/2013 10:58PM

    Don't despair! you'll make it.

I've been in a slippery patch lately myself. I've also been on a long road getting here, and I've got those pesky 50 pounds left to go, too.

The worst part is that we're scheduled for our periodic meeting with our version of the "diet police" (our endocrinologist) tomorrow...he likes to give kudos or k-o's to us on our progress, or lack thereof. I've gotten several "astounding!"s and "spectacular!"s....and I've had a couple of, "so what happened?"s as well. That's hard, because he isn't imposing HIS judgement so much as making me impose my own. I always know what I've done. All he says is, "so you know what to do now." And of course I do. Tomorrow, I'm going to have to "know what to do" again. He was so proud of me the last time. Me too! And then I slipped and let myself indulge in (what I thought were) rare instances of weakness...and I gained almost 10 hard-lost pounds of it back. That makes me angry to boot! I have to do it twice.
The truly disheartening thing about it is that I was within *sniffing distance* of Onederland just after the holidays. I was so elated at this prospect that I think I lost sight of the true endpoint. It isn't Onederland. It's down INTO the "onederlands." I got negligent.

But we'll both get back up and hit our strides again. I know I will. And it sounds like you're dedicated and know where you want to be, too. Don't kick yourself. We all have times like these. We'll make it.
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MARTY728 2/14/2013 11:17AM

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PLMITCH 2/14/2013 8:46AM

    Don't give up!

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TWINZMOM7 2/13/2013 7:39PM

  I'm going to tell you what you just told CAN do this.
Thinking of you.

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KASEYCOFF 2/13/2013 5:41PM

    A rough patch - even long-term - does not make you a failure.

Keep your chin up, hon. Tomorrow, begin again.

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CLARAELIZABETH1 2/13/2013 5:04PM

  Please don't be so hard on yourself! I understand, though, as this happened to me this past week and I was so discouraged. But, I'm back on track and feeling much better! Honestly, what I did was to fall on my face in prayer at bedtime and I asked God for the Holy Spirit's help to give me my drive back to exercise and eat right. Next morning I got up and walked 3 miles first thing to a Leslie Sansone Walk DVD and I haven't looked back! THANK YOU JESUS!

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JLLOVETT 2/13/2013 4:56PM

    “Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow, it empties today of its strength.”
― Corrie ten Boom

No regrets here and no looking back. Forward is the only way to travel.

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CHARITYHOWELL79 2/13/2013 4:53PM

    I know how you feel, so frustrating! Be persistent it will pay off in the future. Hang in there emoticon

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CAROLIAN 2/13/2013 4:12PM

    I have same problem i can gain 14lb in a few days dr says its the meds causng water retention It can really p you off. But you are not alone in this emoticon

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1FEISTYMAMA 2/13/2013 4:01PM

    It is really hard to gain that much fat in a week. Chances are, at least half of that is water and will be gone at next weigh in.

We all have setbacks. It's a normal part of life. You can't change last week's choices but you can do better this meal and one activity at a time. And you don't have to be perfect.....just better than last week.

emoticon You are strong and powerful. You can totally do this!!!

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BERGBA7 2/13/2013 3:38PM

    You may be disappointed or said, but don't beat yourself up! Perseverance and consistence are important and you can do it. Now matter how long it takes you are on your journey to success!
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