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Taking responsibility

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

I had an "aha moment" this morning.

The old me tended to think that "something comes over me" and compels me to eat for comfort or whatever when I am not physically hungry, and that I have to struggle to get "it" under control and then I never know when "the monster" will come back. I feared that I could not gain control of "it" and I would gain all the weight the weight back. (...not an altogether unfounded fear... I have re-gained hundreds of lbs. in my life...)

But what is "it" exactly? An alien entity from another dimension that takes over my physical body? A ghost? A Demon? Bigfoot?

Uh, no. It's ME. Me and the habit I have developed over the past 50 years of stuffing my face whenever I feel uncomfortable with a strong emotion or anxiety.

And just who is in charge of this? Not aliens. Not Jillian MIchaels. Again, ME.

So... all I need to do is become AWARE when I am doing this, and REALIZE in that moment that _I_ am in charge, and that I choose to be healthy and not morbidly obese, and I will have this whole thing licked.

The new me will be working on this.
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  • v MARIANNE9855
    Just don't beat yourself up too much! Our brains have had years of learning these responses and it takes a while to teach them something new but consistency and repetition is what creates new pathways for our brain to function and learn a new response.

    I have gained and lost so many pounds over the years but spark people's tools and support really seems to be making a difference for me this time. emoticon
    1243 days ago
  • v KRISSYDUNN
    Good for you! But remember you don't have to do it alone, you have Spark Fiends to cheer you on. emoticon
    1292 days ago
  • v GAILANN48
    emoticon Loved this blog - thanks for putting the thoughts on "paper" for all of us!

    The "new" me salutes the "new" you. :)

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    :) Gail
    1292 days ago
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