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Taking responsibility

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

I had an "aha moment" this morning.

The old me tended to think that "something comes over me" and compels me to eat for comfort or whatever when I am not physically hungry, and that I have to struggle to get "it" under control and then I never know when "the monster" will come back. I feared that I could not gain control of "it" and I would gain all the weight the weight back. (...not an altogether unfounded fear... I have re-gained hundreds of lbs. in my life...)

But what is "it" exactly? An alien entity from another dimension that takes over my physical body? A ghost? A Demon? Bigfoot?

Uh, no. It's ME. Me and the habit I have developed over the past 50 years of stuffing my face whenever I feel uncomfortable with a strong emotion or anxiety.

And just who is in charge of this? Not aliens. Not Jillian MIchaels. Again, ME.

So... all I need to do is become AWARE when I am doing this, and REALIZE in that moment that _I_ am in charge, and that I choose to be healthy and not morbidly obese, and I will have this whole thing licked.

The new me will be working on this.
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  • MARIANNE9855
    Just don't beat yourself up too much! Our brains have had years of learning these responses and it takes a while to teach them something new but consistency and repetition is what creates new pathways for our brain to function and learn a new response.

    I have gained and lost so many pounds over the years but spark people's tools and support really seems to be making a difference for me this time. emoticon
    1755 days ago
    Good for you! But remember you don't have to do it alone, you have Spark Fiends to cheer you on. emoticon
    1804 days ago
    emoticon Loved this blog - thanks for putting the thoughts on "paper" for all of us!

    The "new" me salutes the "new" you. :)


    :) Gail
    1804 days ago
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