Wednesday, February 13, 2013
I had an "aha moment" this morning.
The old me tended to think that "something comes over me" and compels me to eat for comfort or whatever when I am not physically hungry, and that I have to struggle to get "it" under control and then I never know when "the monster" will come back. I feared that I could not gain control of "it" and I would gain all the weight the weight back. (...not an altogether unfounded fear... I have re-gained hundreds of lbs. in my life...)
But what is "it" exactly? An alien entity from another dimension that takes over my physical body? A ghost? A Demon? Bigfoot?
Uh, no. It's ME. Me and the habit I have developed over the past 50 years of stuffing my face whenever I feel uncomfortable with a strong emotion or anxiety.
And just who is in charge of this? Not aliens. Not Jillian MIchaels. Again, ME.
So... all I need to do is become AWARE when I am doing this, and REALIZE in that moment that _I_ am in charge, and that I choose to be healthy and not morbidly obese, and I will have this whole thing licked.
The new me will be working on this.