Wednesday, February 13, 2013
SP Chris said this on a SparkCoach "lesson," and it's really had me thinking. He said, "Healthy habits aren't the goal. They're the tools to reach your life goals." Though I think my BRAIN knew that, my struggling inner girl said, "????"
But he's right. Other members have added similar thoughts that make me realize my focus on "weight loss" has been way too narrow. My ongoing wrestling match with what I think I want to eat (instead of what I planned) and with what I don't want to do (despite the exercise I planned and bought the DVD for) isn't the central issue. My weight isn't even the issue. I had lost sight of the real reasons I'm doing this, the real goals.
The real goals are something about taking better care of this body I've been mistreating, and maybe giving it the "productive" years for which it was intended. I want to move without my knees hurting, walk at Bill's pace without getting out of breath, choose one outfit from my closet and wear it without having to put 15 things that don't fit onto the bed and feel bad about myself. I don't want to be afraid to stand in front of the changing room mirrors. I want to feel stronger, stand straighter, and have the energy to help others more. I want to live each moment I'm given, really live it, and give all I can.
I'm still noodling through this, still considering the real goals of my life, because even these are still pretty self-centered. But they're a start. They're one step above where I was. They widen and lengthen my perspective on this journey just a bit more...one step at a time.
Thanks everybody for your help - we can do this...we really can.