I know I've not been "active" as of late... posting or keeping up with friends, so it may be that there is no one out there who will read this. I would like to say that I will be more active and I hope I will, but things are SO different now from when I was posting every day and being so active. And it has been hard. Really Hard. HARD. To be active on Spark People. To be active in my life.
I've been losing and gaining the same 5 pounds since August.
It's been annoying.
And then, last night, as I was lying awake in my bed, I realized... my weight loss is equal to my effort. I'm putting in the effort to maintain my weight. I'm doing great at putting in the effort to maintain 140-145. But, I am not putting in the effort to lose those last few pounds. Those last few pounds will not be lost with THIS level of effort. I haven't been running in weeks and weeks. Let alone a long run.
That "Iron Girl" medal I'm planning on earning this spring won't be earned with this level of effort. (It's running two local half marathons that are a week apart.) I'm seriously not in the shape to do that. I'll hurt myself if I were to try. I'm going to have to start training if I am going to do that. Training means effort. More effort than I've been putting forth.
So, I need to decide. Do I want to put in the effort to equal the results I want? Or, am I content with my level of effort and stay at 140-145? I'm 5'7, so I'm at a healthy weight. At this point, it is about deciding where I want to be. I also know that I am not in a place to make those decisions today. I'm suffering with the wonderful stomach flu, again. I've been so sick this winter, it sucks. I need to figure out how to stop getting so darn sick.
I'm super glad I have had this epiphany. I can keep mulling it over. I can make a decision about my level of effort over the next week or so as I heal and get well.
In other news, I spent this last weekend in Kansas with my parents. Amelia and I met them in Wichita for my grandmother's 99th birthday.
(you can't even tell I had a migraine. I'm pretty pleased with that!)
Amelia turned 1 on February 1st. We cut her bangs on February 2nd. She needed to be able to see. It took me a long time to get used to it.
Joshua has been sick with the Norovirus too. The doctor says he should be able to go back to school tomorrow. I hope so.
Well, lovelies... I'm going to sign off.
I'm going to keep mulling over that effort thing and then decide. Do I want to put forth the extra effort to lose and then maintain that extra loss? There's that new jogging stroller just taking up space...