Wednesday, February 13, 2013
I have been confused, angered, disappointed and downright frustrated with a loved one who is dealing with a drug addiction. I just cannot understand the choices she has made and continues to make. My heart breaks with every bit of information I receive. Odd to say out loud, but I was actually relieved when I heard she was arrested the other day. At least I know she is alive.
Anyway, my point is, my issues are not much different than hers. Mine may be legal and my choices may not cause quite as much damage, but addictive behavior is addictive behavior and I have been dealing with my own recently. Judging her while standing in front of the freezer, cramming a half frozen piece of cheesecake in my mouth. BAM! Hello jiggly wiggly belly, blubber thighs and double chin!
Sure, I get lined out and do everything "right" for a decent stretch. But once I get off track, the battle to find my groove again, is fierce.
Time to refocus, realign and lead by example. My deepest desire, is that each of us continues to push forward. We may stumble. We may fall. But while a victim lays there, a warrior battles on. I'm suiting up. Booyah!
It's a beautiful day for a battle.....a battle worth fighting!