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Wednesday, February 13, 2013

I have been confused, angered, disappointed and downright frustrated with a loved one who is dealing with a drug addiction. I just cannot understand the choices she has made and continues to make. My heart breaks with every bit of information I receive. Odd to say out loud, but I was actually relieved when I heard she was arrested the other day. At least I know she is alive.

Anyway, my point is, my issues are not much different than hers. Mine may be legal and my choices may not cause quite as much damage, but addictive behavior is addictive behavior and I have been dealing with my own recently. Judging her while standing in front of the freezer, cramming a half frozen piece of cheesecake in my mouth. BAM! Hello jiggly wiggly belly, blubber thighs and double chin!

Sure, I get lined out and do everything "right" for a decent stretch. But once I get off track, the battle to find my groove again, is fierce.

Time to refocus, realign and lead by example. My deepest desire, is that each of us continues to push forward. We may stumble. We may fall. But while a victim lays there, a warrior battles on. I'm suiting up. Booyah!

It's a beautiful day for a battle.....a battle worth fighting!
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  • BELLE0308
    I totally understand what you are saying and I have dealt with this myself. I take care of many people with addictions in jail but yet I am always confronted with my own issues like eating too much. I guess I believe that I will overcome this at some point. I know you can do it too!! It takes a lot of focus and a lot of work. WE CAN DO IT! emoticon emoticon
    1839 days ago
  • HOLLYM48
    It is a tough fight but we can do it. You are right about addiction. It is a tough battle to overcome whether it is food, drugs, cigarettes etc....
    Good luck with the battle, we are always here for you cheering you on!
    You can do it.
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    1856 days ago
    emoticon Thanks for sharing your struggle with us. Hope your loved one gets help for the drug problem - maybe getting arrested will wake her up! I hope so. It just breaks your heart to watch someone you love destroy their life.
    Now go be the warrior! And hope this struggle gets easier with time.
    Missourians Team
    1858 days ago
    It's humbling, isn't it? Would be a much better world if we could see what we all have in common. Most people have some struggle, and though the issue may vary, we can relate to the feelings of helplessness, frustration, anger and desparation, and even determination that this time will be different...

    I know I am generally sincere when I get in that "this time will be different" mode. And the hope that allows us to keep trying, is that one of these times it is gonna take.

    Some folks get stuff on the first try. I have never really understood them! Some folks never master it. But the hope is real each time, and possible so long as one doesn't throw in the towel.

    Having support can make all the difference. Right now I feel yours, and you know you have mine. We will do it; we are getting closer. Our biggest strength is we remain in the game.

    Besides, just think how annoying we would be if we were perfect! emoticon
    1859 days ago
    Sometimes it takes those moments of seeing a clarity of truth about our own situation to allow us to grow and change. emoticon
    1859 days ago
  • JACKIE542
    Many good points here. We have struggles, but you got it right the important thing is to not give up.
    WOO, HOO! You are no victim. I like it when you call me a machine, well you be the machine now! You go girl, you can do this. I am cheering for you.
    Sure hope your loved one gets all the help she needs too. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1859 days ago
    Wow - I am sorry to hear this struggle, but certainly understand and have lived the scene you paint about standing in front of the freezer while shoving food into your mouth.

    Battle on, warrior!!! We are here to support you!
    1859 days ago
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