Had a really, really, REALLY draggy day yesterday. Laid down for an hour or so in the late morning. Can't say that it recharged me at all. I did manage to make the bed.
But for some reason I was hit with a spark of creativity that drove me to the computer where I created my own Lenten note cards. I had decided that I wanted to do a bit harder challenge for Lent this year, to give UP something as well as to ADD something (which I usually do). So I'm giving UP potatoes for Lent, and I'm ADDING "40 Notes in 40 Days." Every day I will be writing and sending a note of encouragement to someone (mainly from our congregation). The card I created has a picture on the front that says Lent. I added 2013 to it. Beneath it it says, "Making room in my life for God..." and on the inside "...by making room in my day for you!" I made a list of people whom I thought could use a note of encouragement. Didn't know if I could come up with 40. Surprise! I came up with 78! Now the question is, do I save the rest of the list till next year, or do I march ahead after Lent and complete my list?
I don't know where that burst of energy came from. I had read a devotional yesterday that was talking about letting God use your ability to make your artwork, that you needed to give yourself over to the project and let it/God direct you. In response I had written in my Morning Pages that I was just not on the same level as the gal writing the devotions. Imagine my surprise, then when that creativity really hit me. Perhaps God was showing me I don't HAVE to be on anyone else's level. I just have to be myself.
So in the end I had a halfway decent day yesterday. Now I need to go get envelopes for my cards. And there's an Ash Wednesday service tonight, after which we're going for coffee with our bffs. Not focusing on doing anything else today. Just Skyping with my cousin here in a few minutes.
But I am frustrated about the weight again at the moment. I'm back to where I was before the holidays, but that silly scale is not budging. And even though I'm eating at the bottom of my calories, I am pretty sure I've dropped about as far as I am going to without some regular exercise. That means I may be sitting in this place until the weather breaks and I can get out and walk in the Spring. (And I'm only about 14 lbs. away from my main goal I set in October 2011.)
But I am prepared to hold out! When I get discouraged I am picturing the scene in Peter Jackson's "The Two Towers" (from "Tolkien's Lord of the Rings") where the people of Rohan have taken refuge at their mountain fortress of Helm's Deep. They are about to be attacked by Saruman's army and the archers are formed along the top of the wall. Aragorn is walking behind them as they're straining at their bows yelling for them to "Hold!" until the last possible moment.
So that's what I'm doing. I'm on that fortress wall (right next to Haldir, the ruggedly handsome elf from Rivendell who falls in battle and elicited mega sobs from me at the movies -- thank GOD that's not the way the book was!), and I'm "Holding!" Not looking back, just staying the course. I was getting a little anxious this morning because after the Ash Wednesday service tonight we're going out to have coffee and a piece of pie, but I am just remembering what my #2 rule is: I am always going to have times when my social life revolves around food. This is a FACT not a FAILURE, and must fit in with my philosophy.
So there you have it. Other than that I'm awaiting a call from my sister to let me know how Greg's first chemo treatment went this morning. She also has an appointment to talk with a counselor while he's there in treatment. It takes three long hours... So every time I send out a note or pass on the potatoes, Greg is getting an extra powerful prayer from me this Lenten season.
Oh, and I have been meaning to post this ever since we got back from our cruise. Here's a pix of Archimedes and me at Quincy Market Place in downtown Boston in September. It's a bit blurry. She's a little bitty thing with a huge personality! Loved her to pieces.