Wednesday, February 13, 2013
And that is where I am at. Blah!! It's been a rough couple of weeks. Stress is kind of building up again. Hubby is looking at a possible promotion at work which would include a move out of state. That is a good thing. I like adventure. I like looking towards the future and seeing what it out there.
I have found though, that I can only handle one adventure at a time. I know that until he gets an answer on the job front that I should concentrate on this adventure. MY personal adventure. It just isn't working.
This weather has been holy hell. I don't know how the people out east are even handling it right now. My prayers go out to them. I just know that for the past week I have had a cold that has been playing with me. One day it is like I have a 10 ton elephant sitting on my chest and the next he is sitting on my head. One day it's beautiful out and the next it's a deep freeze. This is Wisconsin. I know that. I have lived here all my life, but dammit enough already!
I guess I might just be going through some emotional baggage that always occurs with the possibility of a new move. Where are we going? (Possibly Wintersville, Ohio). What is the climate like? (For both Hubby's sake as well as mine, not to mention that I like to garden). Do I or don't I start my veggie plants indoors or wait to plant? ( I have no idea where I will be so I don't know if started plants are going to travel well without dying off and I am going with all heirloom seeds this year). Are the kids going to be ok with this? (They are all grown and have families of their own (except the youngest who turns 21 this year) but there are grandkids to consider as well). Cost of living? Work for myself?
Ugh it stresses me out just thinking about it. None of which is good at all. It has put a huge stall on my own journey and I don't like it. And OMG! Who the heck came up with this whole equivalent of your body weight divided by 2 to get the ounces of water you need per day divided by 8 to come up with the glasses needed? That might be part of my problem too. For me to drink 12 eight ounce glasses a day is almost next to impossible!!! I have a hard enough time drinking water, but 94 oz. of water is ridiculous!
I think I have been concentrating too much on trying to get my water intake that, just like having been a soda whore, I can't eat. I'm spending too much time filling myself up with water that there is absolutely no room for food!!! Realization moment. I am miserable. Time to re-assess the situation. Time to re-evaluate priorities. And with that I end with Blah!