Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Valentine's Day is tomorrow and instead of making me happy, it is reminding me of how much I don't love myself & I don't understand how anyone else could either.
I am so afraid of dying, but I have not been living for the past 10 years or so either. I'm just here. I don't feel that I am serving a purpose.
-I don't currently enjoy my job.
-My home is a MESS.
-My husband & I don't have the best relationship.
-I am overweight & I ate junk.
-MOTHERHOOD is the HARDEST job EVER! My son stresses me out! And I am tired.
All I do is get up, go to work, come home and sit on the couch because apparently TV and social media are important to me.
I always have thoughts of doing things differently, but I never put any action behind my words. I just like to Talk the Talk.
I need to change. I don't want to feel this way anymore, but there are so many things to change, I don't know where to start. I am so OVERWHELMED.
I need someone to LIFT ME UP and guide me out of my darkness.