Wednesday, February 13, 2013
The big picture is that some major life changes have been taking place in my life and I'm a strong healthy person with a lot of responsibilities, and I'll get through the crushing FEAR.
My nerves are shattered. I'm looking for work, and I'm losing weight! I have no appetite. But it's ok today, food is not motivational, I need to force myself to eat a burger and fries that taste like S***T. I bought new jeans yesterday...size 10 and size 8 that's a feel good, as the 12's and 14's were just falling off. I plan on joining a gym today! Trying to do something about the nerves and depression, but that's a whole other story with the life, living situation. My separated husband sent flowers yesterday...and is sending something else today...chocolates maybe. I miss him and sometimes think we could work it out. Sometimes not...