Wednesday, February 13, 2013
So, yesterday was "Fat Tuesday." On Monday, I had a great day and went for a walk at lunch and a run in the afternoon. When I went to bed, I realized from my BodyMedia that My calorie burn was really high for the day and I didn't eat enough that day. I decided to go to bed knowing that tomorrow I could eat a little more, especially since it is the day before the start of Lent. I haven't had ANY sweets or treats since Jan 2 so I thought that this would be the perfect time to allow myself this.
This is what has happened in the past and again happened yesterday. I got a huge desire to binge. There was a battle going on in my head to just eat whatever I could get my hands on vs. control and using the food tracker. So what ended up happening was a little bit of both. Even though I did eat too much junk, I did track it so, all in all, I don't think I did too bad.
I think knowing that I was going to track everything I ate- even the junk- helped me to control the binge. I guess I would call it a controlled binge -if that makes sense.
Today is Ash Wednesday and as a Catholic, we like to use this day to deny ourselves desires of the flesh and turn our dependence on God. A way that we do that is through fasting and prayer. So, I think that this week will end up balancing out.
I'm so thankful to be able to vent to this community because I know so many of you have been through similar situations too. It feels good to get it out!
Happy Lent, everyone!