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Wednesday, February 13, 2013

At first, when I actively logged my food with my fitbit I was undereating.

Now, since I'm carefully tracking again the last couple days - overeating.

It's emotional, stress-driven eating.

Lots of pressure right now - Jodie's health issues have suddenly come to the forefront. In 7 days we learned she has cataracts on both eyes (at 48!), beginnings of diabetic retinopathy, kidney function not as good as it could be, and she's developed a small abscess on her hip. And her mother is dying of cancer. She bought a ticket home to Louisiana at the end of the school term, but sister called last night saying hospice said her mom isn't likely going to make it through the month. That's just in the last week, and just Jodie's stress. Let's not start listing mine, or I might run to the fridge, LOL.

I'm trying to be aware. I'm trying to log every ugly bite, and I'm trying to keep on moving.

Wouldn't you think, when an obese apparently overly sedentary woman starts moving about an hour a day more than usual, there would be some weight loss, LOL?

I will say, despite the scale's stubborn refusal to budge one bit (tho perhaps I should be grateful it's not going the wrong way!), my clothes are fitting different. Definitely, with no reservation I can say my body IS changing due to the exercise. As always, it amazes me that the first places that begin to show change are the places I don't actually have a problem with in the first place - like my calves. Or my chest (please, I really don't need to lose one more inch there!). Wouldn't you think it'd come off the big areas first? The hips? The belly?

Mostly I'm hanging in there....but boy, can I feel the stress eating at me (and apparently, I'm a stress-induced eating machine, sigh). The movement of zumba, the walks on my breaks - those are definitely helping with the stress though. Sort of shudder to think where I'd be if I wasn't moving!

That's it, checked in for another installment of Lisa trying to get healthy. Have a great day folks, and keep moving!
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    I am so sorry for everything that you and your partner are going through right now. Your self-awareness and your positive attitude are admirable. If you feel like quitting, continue to remind yourself that staying unhealthy will only make all the issues even worse. And the endorphins from exercise are surely keeping you from having a total breakdown, so keep it at it! Continue to be proud of yourself, you have earned it! emoticon
    1652 days ago
    Stress is always a good hanger-on to weight. For whatever reason the more stressed I am, the more weight I hold!! it's more important now than ever to take good care of you - so you can give and be your best for others! I always count the shift in my clothes a better indicator of weight loss/muscle formation. With moving from sedentary to more active it may just be you are toning and forming muscles and those weight more than fat!! Give it time!! You can do it! Best wishes!
    1652 days ago
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