Wednesday, February 13, 2013
I have been having a great week and a half. I feel like I am back into the swing of making good choices, setting goals and reaching them and seeing progress on the scale (at least the right direction- lol). So now I am looking a head to this weekend and I am getting nervous. It looks like I will have adult social plans both Friday and Saturday night. I am worried about the wine. I know it sounds like I have a drinking problem- I don't. I just really like have a social glass of wine or two. The problem is that once I have had a couple of glasses my inhibitions have seem to have left me. Nothing crazy but I may tend to have more or just a little more and a little more until - What the bottle is almost gone- oh crap! Then the next day I feel terrible so I need to eat so I won't feel so yucky and there goes the vicious circle! So I am trying to tap into the motivation I had when I was so successful esp in 2011. That year I was able to have a couple of glasses of wine or even a few 55 calorie beers and be pretty satisfied. I had talked with my friends and we all came up with healthier snacks for when we got together and it worked really well. I would save a lot of my points for those times that we got together. I am trying to bring that girl back! I know I can do it. Friday night will be the easiest because I plan to go to 7 am zumba on Saturday and I don't want to be hurting for that class. I may not have any alcohol that night. Saturday night we are going out with friends and I am really going to try to stick to 2 drinks. I may not have any at dinner and just save it until after when we go back to someones house. Maybe I will talk with one of the girls and see if we can share a bottle. That seems to help. I need to tap into all of the reasons why this is so important. I do not want to give up. I feel like if I keep having some success and then blow it I am really going to feel like a failure and that is not a choice I want to make. I can do this, I know I can. It is really important to my health! This is where I have an issue though- because I think about my health and then I think "I can't gain all that weight back that I lost" and that gets into my head- gaining back what I have lost and I really think it is the law of attraction that when I think that - then that is what I attract- gaining back the weight I have lost. I need to keep this simple. I want to get to a normal weight for my health- period! I really need to remember what it is like to carry that extra 40 lbs like the bags of pellets we use for heat- I will feel so freaking amazing when that is gone- wouldn't it be so nice to be a good ways there by summer?! I need this- this is my gift to myself. Healthy eating and a little wine in moderation. I can do it!