Wednesday, February 13, 2013

While I was at the pool for water Zumba, I complained to no one in general that I was small or short. I was having difficulty in the crowded pool finding a place deep enough that most of my body would be covered by water, but not too deep. A much taller woman next to me called me petite. It reminded me of a time when I was a young teen and my father told me that I was short but I wasn't petite. I was no heavier than than I am now. I'm petite. I claim it. I feel petite, small even at my highest weight.

I am definitely petite now. I'm 5'2" and a size 4. I don't look as petite as I am since I'm large busted. I should wear a 34D bra, but I wear a 36 or 38D since I have them in my drawer and I don't want buy new ones. Last time, I was this small: I wore 36C since those are much easier to find in the store than 34D. When I was a girl, even a young adult, I hated my chest. I often dreamed about being flat chested. I still think it would be nice if someone would drop ten thousand dollars on me so I could get a breast reduction. I suppose I could have done it when I had insurance. Most of the time, I realize it's a dream and I wouldn't waste the money on it if I had the money.

Being called "petite" made me remember a ton of insults my family (mostly my father and his mother) said to me calling me fat. I was 5'2" and never more than 136 pounds as a teen or young adult. I always had small hips so all my weight is in my front. I have broad shoulders, muscular arms, huge breasts and I had a rounder face when I was younger. I was told:

You have a pretty face.
How can you eat so little and be so fat.
You'll weigh a hundred and sixty by the time you're thirty. (I did when I was eight months pregnant. I told me father at that time that he said that to me as a kid and he swore that he didn't.)
You'll be so pretty if you lost weight.
And, of course. You may be short, but you aren't petite.

I suppose I should laugh at it. I'm called petite all the time.
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    Those hurtful words have stayed with you all these years !! It is always hard for me to understand how people who should love us unconditionally can be so cruel and insensitive .

    Hope you were able to find that special spot in the pool for you water zumba.. have never hear of this but sounds like fun!! emoticon
    1863 days ago
    When you find that secret benefactor with the $10,000 just tell the surgeon to save whatever he takes from you and drop it onto me. LOL
    "Small hips" - Oh yeah, we have opposite bodies all right.
    "Petite" Oh how I envied the petite girls in HS. I outgrew my girlfriends early.

    1865 days ago
    ah, famdamnily! They mean well, but sorting us out into fat vs skinny, etc. just doesn't work in the long run. I'm glad you got a new view of yourself!!!
    1865 days ago
    the best part about that comment is the fact that it came from a total stranger who was only reacting to the way you look. you now have a truly objective opinion of your body. you are petite. very glad for you!
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