Wednesday, February 13, 2013
I got home from the hospital for treatment on PTSD issues. I had lost focus in my life. I got a lot of help out of treatment and felt better when I came home on Monday evening. Though, I felt overwhelmed yesterday because there was so much to do and I seemed to be moving so slow. I went to a support group in the evening and afterward snacked on some French peasant bread I bought since I seemed to have missed it from some time and made the "bread" mistake. I honestly should not have bread in the house, though for some reason I reached for it anyway. I seemed to be exhausted emotionally at the end of the day and suddenly grabbed many slices of bread and ate them and ate blueberry preserves out of the jar. I need a better plan when I feel overwhelmed. I have a warmline phone number from a local peer run mental health agency. I forgot I could call them.
I am supposed to stay away from the news but I see it on my Yahoo and my Mom was watching the president's speech last night. That was probably something that I should have skated over. I feel so overwhelmed by the problems in the world.
During the day I felt so paralyzed to get everything done. I honestly did accomplish quite a bit with some tasks and did not manage to give myself credit for that. Depression is hard to deal with and I need to make some changes.
I know that the Lord is watching over me. Things will get better.