The Day I Had Been Dreading Has Arrived
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Today was the first day my Mother, who has Alzheimers, did not recognize me. I knew it was coming, braced myself for the eventuality, but it was still a sorrowful moment. The moment where there was no recognition, only fear and distrust in her eyes. She was distressed that this ' stranger' was following her around. The bright side was that I managed to look in her eyes and talk to her, eventually bringing her back to me, until she finally looked at me long and hard and said with discovery, " I see you now!". I am writing this in the dark, listening to her soft snores while she sleeps. I didn't eat a lot today but did finally have to raid the fridge at the memory care where she lives. I did not break down and take cakes, ice cream or cookies. I took a nice salad and some applesauce. I realized after a busy, emotional day with my Mom that the worst thing I could do today is not take care of myself.