Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Today I was feeling fine, working and getting things done and then a few little things threw me off. They were not major, a little hiccup with one of my colleagues who was being negative when I need him to get some things done, a comment from another person who seemed to suggest that a position I'm applying for will be filled from outside the company and then a somewhat negative comment I made about MYSELF. Totally unbidden it popped from my mouth. I don't usually do that. All of this together threw me off.
I say all this because one of my strategies to avoid overeating, etc is to track my stress, stop and notice it instead of blindly reacting.
I think it's partly insecurity about my chances for getting the position I'm applying for. And partly some personal stuff bubbling up.
I am recognizing it and moving on. I'm going to meditate a little bit and envision me being accepting and contented. Going to the gym and then watching the President's speech. Getting my stuff ready so I can go straight from work to yoga tomorrow evening. Going to sleep at a reasonable hour and focusing on being extra-productive at work tomorrow, making sure I am well-prepared for a presentation I'm making. That will make me feel better. Going to hot yoga tomorrow evening and setting it all aside.
I am not the sum of my accomplishments. If I don't get the job, it isn't the end of the world. We will find a way to make our deadline this week, one way or another. I will get through my personal stuff and be stronger for it.