Tuesday, February 12, 2013
I have had my feelings hurt so badly today. I am not about to go into details but have you ever had one of those relationships that is really toxic but you are trapped? I am all this person has and I do everything I am able to in order to help. I also protect myself the way my counselor taught me to by only doing what I should and not what I am manipulated into doing.
I was treated like a servant today and I am not sure why it hurt me so bad. Perhaps it is because I know this person lies to me a lot and lies to others in the family to get their way.
I am also pre-menstrual and may be a little touchy but it does not diminish the fact that I am really hurt in a way that only someone close to you can hurt you.
I am having a good cry and will feel better soon but sometimes I wish I would learn whatever lesson the Lord is trying to teach me so I can move on. I want to Honor Him in my treatment of this person and will continue as long as I am called to do so but, again, for right now, that little eight year old girl inside really wants her Mommy.