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Hurting Really bad

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

I have had my feelings hurt so badly today. I am not about to go into details but have you ever had one of those relationships that is really toxic but you are trapped? I am all this person has and I do everything I am able to in order to help. I also protect myself the way my counselor taught me to by only doing what I should and not what I am manipulated into doing.

I was treated like a servant today and I am not sure why it hurt me so bad. Perhaps it is because I know this person lies to me a lot and lies to others in the family to get their way.
I am also pre-menstrual and may be a little touchy but it does not diminish the fact that I am really hurt in a way that only someone close to you can hurt you.

I am having a good cry and will feel better soon but sometimes I wish I would learn whatever lesson the Lord is trying to teach me so I can move on. I want to Honor Him in my treatment of this person and will continue as long as I am called to do so but, again, for right now, that little eight year old girl inside really wants her Mommy.
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  • CIERAPOET
    emoticon Julie...

    Family can hurt us the most BUT...LOVE NEVER FAILS! emoticon I learned to reach inside for the Love Of God and Forgive and move on because I'm the one experiencing the pain and Jesus has already paid for that so I don't have to. It's hard to not cling to hurts. With me I have to let it go immediately. Hope today is a day of SMILES! emoticon
    Deb
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    1322 days ago
  • GK1963
    So sorry that you are feeling so badly. Noone deserves to feel that way. Please don't allow this to change the wonderful person that you are.
    1324 days ago
  • BUGLET-
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    1324 days ago
  • EVWINGS
    Getting those tears out will make you feel better. Then try being as positive as possible. You can remain respectful to this person without giving in to their every whim. I'm sure God doesn't mean you to be a mat for this person to walk all over you.
    Will be keeping you in thought and prayer that your kindness is appreciated. You are so special that I'm sure it will be. You are worthy of better treatment that's for sure!

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    1324 days ago
  • CAMAEL100
    I have been there and it is so hard when someone that is meant to love you can do or say extremely hurtful things. I would not take any notice of it being V day! That is just an opportunity for so many to feel less and unloved! and to be reminded of it constantly all week!!

    Hope things look brighter tomorrow!
    1324 days ago
  • LIVINGFREE19
    So sorry to hear this, my friend!

    I hope you feel better about it now. (It is Thursday)

    Big (((HUGS)))
    1324 days ago
  • CALLMESALLYG
    Unfortunately, I have one of those friends too and I'm actually her Maid of Honor on Sunday and it is not something that I am happy about. She has been my best friend for 17, almost 18 years, but I think Sunday will be a mistake. :( it's hard being hurt by the ones you love and care about and it's hard to see them hurt, especially when they're hurting themselves. I'll be praying for you!!
    1326 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/12/2013 11:16:14 PM
  • GODS_TEMPLE
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    Surrounding you with love and hugs!
    1326 days ago
  • BELLADONNAHEALS
    emoticon to you, I hope tomorrow is a better day! emoticon
    1326 days ago
  • KIMBERLY19732
    Sorry, that stinks! emoticon
    1326 days ago
  • BUTTERFLYGRACE
    emoticon It is soooo the day for tears. And they really do help. I'm glad you are utilizing that gift that the Lord gave us.

    Keep taking really good care of you. You're sooooo worth that effort. Writing about how you feel is an awesome gift you gave to yourself. I'm so happy for you, Julie, that you're taking this time to heal and care for you.

    Love and sweet hugs, my dear friend,
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    1326 days ago
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