Tuesday, February 12, 2013
I was just reading over my last blog and canít believe how life can change on a dime; and send a person spiraling downward.
I was so excited to tell you about the new man in my life, and how well things were going. In a matter of a few hours, laughter became tears and soft words became angry and hurtful. We met as planned for lunch with my youngest son and I couldnít have asked it to go any better. They hit it off, found several things in common and we did a lot of laughing.
My son and I did a few errands on the way back home; stopped at an estate sale where we found some great deals on things we needed (not wanted but really needed Ė a holder for the garden hose and a shovel for digging holes to plant trees and shrubs in). By the time we arrived home and I sent a text to let the man know we were back home, a cyclone (started by his ex-wife) was in full swing and the chances of continuing our relationship was hanging in the balance. I canít go into details but because of the possible ramifications of her actions, he may have to move further away and being able to spend time together would be nearly impossible. Neither of us is well-to-do as far as money, and travel would be too expensive for either of us on a regular basis. Due to the anger and stress he was under, and the hurt I felt, we both said things we shouldnít have. Talking that was once so easy has become strained and uncomfortable Ė both afraid to say what we really feel because we donít want to cause any more strain on an already fragile connection. I feel like I have been hit by a semi-truck. Now all I can wonder is why this wonderful man was brought into my life if he was only going to be taken away from me so soon. I just donít know what to think or do.
Update: After a very long phone conversation, things are looking brighter. Some issues still need to be resolved, and could take 2-3 weeks before we know what will happen as far as where he will be living.