Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Why do I want to lose weight?
Itís funny, no one has told me I need to lose weight: not my doctor, not my husband or other family members. I know Iím overweight.
By some standards, as little as 15 lbs for a woman my age.
Other standards say itís better if I weighed what I did at 22, 115 lbs. I want to lose weight because my thighs are rubbing against each other. I donít like my flabby arms. I want to be a thin old lady and itís better if I begin now to make this happen. Also, it seems even when I have been at my heaviest, Iíve had a tummy, as I do now, I canít get obese. Itís not in my bodyís make-up. Iíd have to stay in bed and eat and eat to become fat. Which is absurd.
Since I cannot weigh more than 180 lbs, which has been my heaviest even when I was pregnant, I may as well get back to being 125 lbs. I was this weight as little as 5 years ago. Itís a truly attainable goal for 2013. I currently weigh 160. Iíd like to fit back into my wedding dress, and then I was 135. I got married in Sept. 2011. Why am I fat? Itís not because I overeat. I drink enough water. I have cut out soda. I am not exercising. I think at 46, this is a necessity.
I HAVE TO FIND AN EXERCISE I LOVE AND THAT I WILL DO DAILY.
I enjoy walking. I just donít enjoy walking around a loop in the park I live in. 3 times around is a mile. Iíd have to drive to a golf course to walk and Iíd have to drive to a gym, which I didnít do last year. There was too much money wasted on a gym membership not taken advantage of. I donít like rural life. I did not know that in 2011. I could only see the cute little home, with the backyard and a future vegetable garden. Iím not alone. Within a year or so, itís likely weíll be back in Portland and having a 24 HR Fitness membership once more. Iím a displaced downtowner for now.
The saddest thing is that my husband has gained a lot of weight. Iím overweight. And I live with Santa Claus. Itís horrible.