First let me say that you guys are tremendously supportive! So supportive, in fact, that I went back and changed my "Self-Esteem" level from Moderate (3) to High (4). No kidding, I just did it.
So let me tell you what I did YESTERDAY after I got up early from abusing my besty's house again Sunday night! I took all my own linens and quilts and blankets and such so all I had to do was put her bed back together, wash 4 cups and get the heck out of Dodge before she came home at 9am! I did it and she was fabulously happy with the cleaning job and walking in and not even smelling that she has 2 cats. She was so happy to not have to do laundry for work clothes and she said she would let me come over and START on her closet, and she would help me with the end part... like where to put everything. And when I told her I vacuumed and mopped upstairs, she was floored and said she hadn't even been upstairs in 4 months. They have a 5 bedroom, 3 bath home and they never go upstairs. It amazes me! LOL
So after I came home and messed around with my dad's 1960 Impala for a bit, I walked 5 miles. Yes 5 MILES! I turned my iPhone on and just walked and walked and walked. It was humid and I was sweating like a whore in church, but I was working it out! And I did look up all the calories burned having sex and making out and such and boy do those calories add up!! Anyway, after the 5 mile walk I did my AbLounge so that was 150 sit-ups, then washed both dogs who were FILTHY, dried them, clipped their nails, trimmed my toenails, vacuumed up all toenails, and then took the longest shower of my life and cleaned the tub while I was in there.
I had a long and busy day. Today I slept until 11:25 am!! My dad even closed my bedroom door so no one would wake me up since he knew I was tired! Gosh, I love him so much. PLUS, he bought me a replacement Sawzall so I can go kill things in the back yard again. He got the "industrial" use one this time so it should last more than 6 months!
My feet are still not firmly planted on the ground, but I am in love and it is a miserable thing to know that someone you loved at 19 is still someone you love at 38. What is miserable is the leaving part that comes in about 3 weeks. But I am going to make it and get my focus back on my workouts and kick some booty and make him miss me like crazy and beg me to come up there to see him.
And what to do about Valentine's Day?? No idea yet, but I am sure we will end up together somehow or other. And if we don't, then I will know where I stand and can relax a little.
Anyway, I am jazzed that I walked 5 miles, but today is strength training and my father has littered my weight room and put a FREEZER full of meat in there, so I have to rearrange a bit. Well, that will start the workout and when I get to the nautilus I will do my strength training since I haven't been on it in about a week now. And I AM going to get my full workout in today... regardless of anything else.
Hugs and love to you all, and thank you again for your support. I do like this positive side of me, and even though I had a small meltdown yesterday when the vacuum cleaner ate my fingers and beat the mess out of them - please don't make me explain, but you should listen to Pink's song, "Don't Let Me Get Me". That is the one that says "I'm a hazard to myself". Here's the link. And I LOVE this song. www.youtube.com/watch?v=
(It's great to work out to, as well!)
On that note...
Peace, Love, and ACCEPT YOURSELF FOR WHO YOU ARE!