Tuesday, February 12, 2013
So yesterday I decided to try and read again. I know that sounds weird but I love to read and when I read I do not do much of anything else. So yesterday I decided to start a book. I did read all night last night but I did manage to get a one hour workout in yesterday as well. I also have worked out today and I will start reading again tonight. I have a all or nothing personality and I am trying to stop that. I want to be able to do multiple things that I enjoy such as working out and reading. So I am trying to incorporate both.
I am happy to say my husband returns from military deployment tomorrow. This is great news but scary. Whenever he comes home I gain weight. He loves to make me fat, as he is overweight himself. He likes to bring me home candy and ice cream, bake a dozen cookies, etc. I don't want any of it but when I say something he always tells me I don't appreciate his efforts. So tomorrow I will be happy but worried about my weight loss progress. He is not supportive at all and likes to sabotage my efforts. He does not do it to be mean he just is not ready to make an effort on himself and feels better when he brings me down with him. I have increased my workouts while he has been gone and I know he is going to complain if I continue to workout in the morning and at night so I am going to have to get up extra early so I can get a long workout in in the morning instead of breaking it up for convenience sake.
He also likes to eat out ALOT. I work so hard getting the kids programmed to eat healthy and live a healthy lifestyle and then when he gets home it seems to go out the window. I worry for my daughter who is a little overweight for her age. She is 8 and 84 pounds. She is tall for her age but is still off the chart. I try to set a good example for her and we wii dance and I take her swimming and things. My husband is staying home all summer with the kids as he is retiring from the military and will start his new job in the fall. I worry that he will not be a good example for her. He may start off with good intentions but fizzle out not to my daughters benefit. I don't want to harp or aggravate him about it but I am really worried. How do you tell someone who has low self esteem he is hurting not just himself but his wife and kids. UGHH! I guess I don't and just continue to chug along and do the best we can.
My workouts have been reduced a little this week compared to last week. I think I may have pulled a muscle or pinched a nerve in my back so no more hour and a half workouts. I am trying to stick with just one hour a day this week. We will see if it works.