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Realizing my issues.........

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

I've been doing some "self evaluating" lately. Three things need to be addressed so that I may move forward in my journey of becoming more healthy. Funny thing is, I realize my "quirks" and that "it's all in my head" but still it is amazing to me that I fall into these patterns or traps, if you will.
1. I need to start making myself a priority. This has been an issue since childhood. I aim to please, love to help others, buy for others, take care of others. And in the end there is nothing left for me. Or when I try to do something for myself I feel tremendous GUILT!!!!

2. I LOVE FOOD!!!!! I love the color, the texture, the smell, and taste of food. I love trying new recipes. I love preparing food. Food is not fuel to me.....it's a pleasure. (very very dangerous pleasure)

3. Paranoia......I am so paranoid, that I think people are talking about me and making fun of me, especially at the gym. "look at that fat girl" or " wow she's wearing that? looks like she painted on those paints" Meanwhile in reality I KNOW most people are just as self absorbed... their not worrying about how I look but how they look.

I realize these 3 issues won't be fixed overnight, but I am aware of them. I face the fact that I AM A WORK IN PROGRESS!
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  • v KA_JUN
    We're all works in progress, hopefully, we never stop striving for personal growth! Takes a lot to be able to look inward and acknowledge elements that are holding us back from achieving our goals. Good luck! emoticon
    1292 days ago
  • v SELTZER111
    Congratulations on taking steps to a new healthier you ! I am a mom to five (my baby is now 21) and I admit I used to give me all to everyone but me, then one day I woke up and realized I wasn't happy so I started giving to myself as well !! Even moms need some TLC from themselves !! Good luck to you with your fitness goals. You CAN do this !!

    1292 days ago
  • v JLR080500
    So guilty of all of these!
    1292 days ago
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