So since the first of the year I have been talking about how this year is going to be different!
This was going to be the time I got healthy, I lost weight and I got a grip on the stress from the trauma that happened with my kids back last Mother's day (the day my world came crashing down! The day we caught my 16 (now 17) year old son sexual abusing my 7 (now 8) year old daughter! After that my life spiraled out of control, my weight went up, my energy levels went down and I had all but given up completely! (I have even come dangerously close to that a few times!)
But look into my baby girls baby blues, I knew she needed me! She needed me to be strong - and to get a grip! So I for me 2013 was more than just another "New Year"s Resolution" is was a new beginning! A fresh start! I decided I could not change the horrible things that happened in 2012, I could not change what my son did all I could do was change what I did from this day forward. (I think many times in life we tend to dwell too heavily on the past - which prevents us from moving forward and for me I decided enough was enough it was time to .......
STEP UP OR SHUT UP!
I have officially made it past the first month marker and while I have started to slow down a bit. I am still working hard to stick with my plan of making those much needed life changes - starting with getting healthy.
Lets start with what I need to work on the most first......
~ I have given up sodas and sweet drinks BUT I still do not drink anywhere near enough. Getting maybe 24 - 40 ozs of fluid in my body a day TOTAL with everything.
~ I am horrible at logging my food, partly because when I log it - I tend to be under on most of everything but the sodium which is my 3 one......
~ I love my salt! I do not want to give up my salt! I tried to "substitute salt" and hated it! No idea how to solve this one - Yet!!!!
~Lastly I need to stop making excuses on days the abdominal pain is bothering me or I am having a bad day - and get up and exercise anyway. My workout routines are all over place and everything I read say you need balance! So I need Yoda or a Zen Master or something to help me find my balance!
~ The dieting is going pretty good with only a few minor slip ups here and there. In my opinion this is what has been saving me come weigh in time.
~ The weight is still coming off though very very slowly.
~ I have bought several X-Box Kinect Fitness games which I really enjoy! They allow me to get a nice workout without leaving my home (something that is hard to do when I can not afford a gym, live an hour from town, and live in the mountains of WV so I have not really wanted to go outside) The best part of it is some of the games let me get a workout and play with my family especially my daughter! (Perhaps I will write another blog about my opinions on some of the different games from a mommy point of view as well as a girl who is "done being the fat girl!"
~ Lastly, I have been doing pretty good with the motivation. I have downloaded some Pod-casts on ITunes (like I listen to the SparkPeople podcast), downloaded a Audio-book my Jillian Michaels called "Unlimited" to listen to while I am surfing the web and such! It's full of great info and I love her no nonsense way of looking so so far I am really enjoying it.
So all in all I am still on the path to STEP UP OR SHUT UP!!!!!