I feel like I'm on a rollercoaster and don't know how to stop! I keep having bad days. I still exercise as much as I can with my RA. I drink all my water and more veggies and fruit, more than ever and count everything and go over my ranges every day. I eat too much. I don't feel satisfied with healthy food all the time. I find I need a little more fat in my day or I'm hungry all the time. I wonder if this is a time that I have to go through and have a little gain here and there before I get my feeling of soaring once again. I don't want to gain back all that I've worked so hard to lose. It sure can come back on in a hurry, that's for sure! I've thought about throwing in the towel. It gets almost embarrassing to be here on SP, when so many around me are doing so well, and I just stay in one place for soooo long and then gain 10#! The one thing that I'll keep in mind is that I am a changed person since finding SP and learning what I know now. SP has taught me so much about exercise and eating right. I know that I can do it and I've proved to myself that it works. It's just a matter of doing it and denying myself every day and that hasn't been very easy for quite some time, I would venture to say even since Halloween. Yes, Halloween and then with all the holidays that followed, I struggled. I pretty well held my own then with this last month, I've been giving up. I need help! Help to stay above water. I feel like I'm the only one to have these problems and I know that can't be true. That's why we're all here on SP!