Monday, February 11, 2013
As I'm waiting on my book to arrive, I checked out Nancy's blog to see what comes next after the self inventory. The subject? Surrender. If you only knew what this word means to me right now. I have so many emotions running through my veins right now....most of which I can't even begin to put into words.
"Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28. Well, I'm definitely burdened today. Sometimes a pastor carries burdens that they are unable to share with others, for one reason or another. But it's great to be reminded that through the weariness and burdened times, Jesus offers us an invitation that we can choose to accept or ignore.
Jesus is the source of my health and healing. That's great food for thought!
Assignment: “... record your feelings about this journey you are beginning. ... When you have finished, imagine yourself wrapping up whatever feelings you have expressed, placing them on God’s altar, and surrendering them to him.” (p. 5)
When I prayed and was led to this journey of "Faithfully Fit" I assumed I would be led day by day into areas of suggested helpful hints for living a focused driven lifestyle and helpful hints for staying on track. What I forgot about was that these 40 days are interwoven with day to day life. Which means, there will be smooth sailing days and there will be difficult days. Healthy lifestyle living is so much easier on the smooth sailing days than those days that are emotional roller coasters.
I love challenges, I love pushing myself and attempting new things; however, there is always that healthy fear of the unknown. What I need to remember is that Jesus knows all about that and He is already there, in the unknown. I was reminded today that I need to "Trust in the Lord and lean not on my own understanding." My understanding is often tainted by the bad taste of former experiences; however, if I don't try, I'll never know what opportunity I may have passed up.
Which leads me to surrender. "Lord, I give you my fears. The fears I have today, the ones I will face tomorrow and the ones that I don't even know of in the future. I trust you, Lord. I give you my all. Mold me, shape me, use me, to further your Kingdom."
It's important to me to prepare myself spiritually before I can hope to prepare myself physically. Concerning Faithfully Fit and where surrender comes in, is the willingness to surrender whatever it is that might be holding me back. It's easy to give up the things that I'm not fond of but step on something that's a daily part of me and that word will be pushed to the max.
My hopes are that this is a learning experience. There may be ups and downs, curves thrown at me, challenges to overcome, but my prayer is for strength to achieve and to keep God at the center of this experience.