Actually, some of you really DO take the time to remember me, even when I'm not communicating on the site. Thank you for keeping me connected and for not giving up on me!
I've had the job for a month now, and it is really going well. The honeymoon period is coming to an end, I feel it, but that's OK. There is no such thing as a perfect situation, so I'm kind of glad the warts are starting to show. But these warts are no where near as ugly as the ones I'm used to. So I'm still happy.
For the first time since I started working, I actually feel like I don't have to fall into bed after dinner. And I cooked dinner tonight. (A simple stir fry, but still...) I didn't rely on the freezer or takeout or delivery, or cereal. Lord, I've eaten a lot of cereal. I've been off my plan on my plan, and really trying to get my life back on a brand new track.
This track is where I can have an awesome job, a healthy life style, a social life, and have a great relationship and time with my doggie. Ok, patience, patience, I can't have it all in the blink of an eye. I need to work at this.
And so I spent the weekend cooking (I've been cooking most weekends, but only a dish or two.) My freezer is full again.
I'm rambling, I know. But I guess the best part of this is that even when I have a crap day food wise, I see that there are some new behaviors that really ARE part of who I am now. I always measure my milk for my coffee and in my cereal. I measure condiments and even when eating pizza, I'm aware of what I'm eating. Being aware doesn't always keep me healthy, but it is so much better than the dark and gloomy days of not knowing or caring.
On Friday I get access to the fitness center at work. I finally feel like can DO a workout after getting up at 4:30, driving the big drive, learning the new work. So my goal for the rest of February (after Friday) is to do three real workouts a week. I can do the step at home now. (I haven't, but I can) on the weekends. And twice a week I can work out after work. I suppose I should SEE that fitness room before committing to it, but whatever. Even if it is just a bike and treadmill I can do it.
I'm not going to promise to check in every day, but rest assured I'm here, and I am starting to adapt and have the energy to use my free time to do more than veg!