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THIS CONFIRMS IT....I AM MAD

Monday, February 11, 2013

I have been battling "something" for months. I don't want to call it illness because I still function and for me illness is when I'm bedridden - not totally accurate I know- but its how my brain works. Needless to say, its been months that I have had strange symptoms. As soon as some symptoms clear, others seems to take hold of me. Either way I've been sick ever since I got back from my fabulous day outing with hubby while climbing a few hundred stairs.

I was well one day, and sick the next.

My symptoms are that I am constantly VERY dizzy. Not as a dizzy spell, and not like vertigo, more like a sensation that I'm getting smaller and smaller and exiting the room.
Then I "snap to" and judging by my friends and families faces.....nothing actually happened. No ones looking at me strangely or anything. Then I feel my heart beating under my breasts (sort of in my colon) and then I end up in tears. Its a very frightening feeling.

I've been to 3 doctors so far and each diagnoses something different....from high blood pressure to middle ear infection and the latest TIA. I don't believe its any of those because NONE of their meds have changed the dizzy thing at all. Worst is I am so emotional. I cry for everything and its not menopause....I did that one years ago.

I've had my thyroid tested, thats fine. Next step is to have a blood test to see if my hormone levels are ok. Just working this by elimination. I don't have medical aid so everything costs me an arm and a leg.

Sadly you get those delightful souls who get tired of a usually well person, no longer being on top form. I've been told all kinds of things like "are you enjoying the attention?" HELL NO.
I enjoy being well and running around with my hubby and kids on the beach. I enjoy rustling up something delicious for my family...sewing...singing.....
gosh you name it I do it and love doing it.
I do NOT enjoy being off kilter constantly.
I do NOT enjoy being in tears over little.
I do NOT enjoy feeling about to faint in public places and meetings.
I do NOT enjoy having given up driving because I feel unsafe behind the wheel.

Anyway.....thats not what the blog was supposed to be about.
The thing that confirms I am mad is :-
With all of this going on in my life, I've signed up for a 12 week weight loss challenge with my sister. How mad is that? emoticon emoticon At least I cant be dying right?!
Here are some of the benefits and details
Education on different topics about nutrition, weight loss and healthy living every week.
There will be weekly prizes and Grand prizes at the end.
They promise great Support and lots of fun
We get a weight loss coach
We get a goodie Bag to the value of R345 FREE
We get 3 Body assessments to the value of R300 each FREE
And free access to our on line tracking and monitoring system
They promise lots of fun!

So will I be well enough for this.....goodness knows?
But I am so sick of doing nothing because of the dizzy thing.

Tomorrow I go to yet another Dr but at least this one comes highly recommended from a brother in our congregation who had the exact same symptoms as me for ages. He heard about my current health issues and invited me over to hear his story - and I tell you - its one and the same except he got so bad (could have been his age and the fact that he is already sick with cancer) but he ended up in a wheel chair. He spoke of the same frightening feeling after each dizzy spell. He spoke of feeing weak. He spoke of feeling embarrassed at being in tears in front of his wife over absolutely nothing. He spoke of finding eating difficult....so do I. The art of chewing is exhausting.
Even so, this Dr got him walking again in 2 months. He said he is 95% better and even attended hall cleaning and worked. I'm hoping this bodes well for me because I'm not in a wheel chair. I am generally exceptionally healthy and well. These last few months have really been odd for me.

In the last 2 months I have had so little energy that I barely do anything...hence no blogs.
I have not even been able to keep my house work done. My sister has been a stalwart in helping keep my dogs bathed, house tidy and driving me everywhere I needed to be. My fs has dropped to an exceptionally low figure, but I haven't stressed...what could I do?

So instead of lying down and preparing to die (pun) I signed up for a weight loss challenge.
OH WELL!!!!

Today I did TWO THINGS and completed the tasks....yay for me *shaking head with a sigh*
One thing I did was crave eggplant. I didn't feel like them fried, neither did I feel like them cooked in a microwave, so I wandered if they could be put into a toaster and grilled?
Here is my experiment. Eek didn't realize my toaster looked so bad emoticon




I rubbed them either side with olive oil before popping the slices with skin on into the toaster.


They toasted just fine.


One toasted eggplant.


Next add some fat free cottage cheese.


Lastly add some rocket and tomato and you have a super healthy, super tasty snack for +-200 calories.


The next thing I did was to create a box for a toy I plan on sending Axel. The toy was a croquette stick and ball and I could not find a box to fit it ANYWHERE.
Started with a flat piece of cardboard.


Spent some time trying to figure out how to do this.


Finally got the hang of it.


In with the stick went a bunch of his favorite sweeties.


And all done.


And there you have it. Now I just have to post it to my darling little grandson whom I miss with all my heart.









So thats it folks...my life has boiled down to completing 2 simple tasks a day.....mind you today I completed 4. The other two include feeding my dogs, and doing dishes oh I forgot AND I swept a tiniest area and then had to sit down...energy spent.
Its ridiculous I was always 'MRS ENERGY" and I sooo hate being this weak.

Maybe tomorrows Drs visit will be just what I need.
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  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

CAMSEDGE 2/13/2013 11:16AM

    Your finnished eggplant dish looked devine. Your grandson is a handsome little man!

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STEADFASTNSEE 2/12/2013 10:04PM

  HUGS and MWA!!

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CINA-MINI 2/12/2013 7:34PM

    My goodness, how can anyone ask if you are enjoying the attention? Even if they were "kidding around", it isn't funny.

I hope the other doctor can help find a solution that you are able to do.

Many hugs!

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MELTEAGUE 2/12/2013 3:47PM

    Isn't he such a cutie!~

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SHEILA1505 2/12/2013 7:37AM

    Hope you get some help from the Doc today, Celeste, and that the weight loss program will be a help - it seems like good value

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ONLYTEMPORARY 2/11/2013 11:56PM

    I truly hope he can help. It sounds a bit like me too emoticon

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WHOVIANGIRL23 2/11/2013 11:35PM

    I really hope you feel better soon!

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CELESTE_B 2/11/2013 9:15PM

    I sure hope you get to feeling better soon!

awesome about the challenge, just be careful!

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BOOKWERME 2/11/2013 9:14PM

    Axel and Andrew could be first cousins! It would be so much fun to get them together!

Hope your medical mystery is soon solved. emoticon

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GAMOMMY3 2/11/2013 8:58PM

    emoticon Hope you find relief soon. The eggplant looked yummy. Make have to try it sometime.

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NESARIAN 2/11/2013 7:49PM

    I wish you luck tomorrow. Out of the ordinary health challenges can be difficult to diagnose. emoticon

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SHERYLDS 2/11/2013 6:52PM

    ever been checked for hypoglycemia
http://www.diabetes
.org/living-with-diabetes/treat
ment-and-care/blood-glucose-con
trol/hypoglycemia-low-blood.html
What are the symptoms of hypoglycemia?

Symptoms of hypoglycemia include the following:
•Shakiness
•Dizziness
•Sweating
•Hunger
•Headache
•Pale skin color
•Sudden moodiness or behavior changes, such as crying for no apparent reason
•Clumsy or jerky movements
•Seizure
•Difficulty paying attention, or confusion
•Tingling sensations around the mouth


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SUGARSMOM2 2/11/2013 6:50PM

  my niece was ill for many years before they found she had a problem with her immune system . I hope you get to the bottom of your trouble soon . Yes it can be costly . many things can sound like something else and what is brothering you might be something they have already told you was not your problem but will find that it was in the end . have you meditate and feel what parts of your body are out of bounds with it self .

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DETERMINED_ME 2/11/2013 6:04PM

    Stay strong and continue being proactive. I hope you find out what is causing these issues.

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WALLAHALLA 2/11/2013 5:58PM

    I've gotta try the eggplant toasting...looks so yummy.

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LOLAJO54 2/11/2013 5:17PM

    Gish Celest I pray your doctors visit tomorrow will have some answers
--that sound awful..hugs

wow that eggplant toaster lunch was ideal --lol

boy you must so miss the little guy ---he is so cute --so loveable -- anyway you can visit him?

all my best emoticon Jo

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NOTSOFLUFFYDAD 2/11/2013 4:54PM

    I can certainly understand your frustrations. I went 6+ years in and out of the dr and hospital with symptoms and ailments. I saw a gazillion different specialists and nobody, I mean NOBODY, could ever give me an answer as to what was going on. My wife watched me almost die 3 times right under their noses, and they had no clue! Each time I would get madder and more frustrated. Finally, a pain specialist told me a lot of it was dealing with the immense pain I was in for all those years. Since I had my pain implant put in and have been able to actually work on getting healthier, my symptoms have gone away for the most part. An elder in my hall has been having the same symptoms as you for a long time too. Just the other day, they finally figured out what it is. The problem is it will take major surgery and it could possibly kill him before they can operate. In his upper sinus cavity, growing around his brain, they found some sort of major infection that can only be removed surgically and they have no idea at this point how much damage it has done to his brain for being there all this time. So, please stay proactive as you can to make them figure this out. I know how expensive it is, the only health insurance program that will cure us is not too far away. All my love to you and your family.

Paul

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DEBBIEANNE1124 2/11/2013 4:44PM

    Axel looks a lot like his Daddy.

I'm sorry you're not feeling well Celest. I'm worried about you.

How's your sinuses?
Can it be stress? I have a friend suffering so much stress with a new Cancer diagnosis and she's dizzy from it all ... Just saying.

Let us know how the Dr. appt goes.

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TKRYSTINA 2/11/2013 4:33PM

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