I have been battling "something" for months. I don't want to call it illness because I still function and for me illness is when I'm bedridden - not totally accurate I know- but its how my brain works. Needless to say, its been months that I have had strange symptoms. As soon as some symptoms clear, others seems to take hold of me. Either way I've been sick ever since I got back from my fabulous day outing with hubby while climbing a few hundred stairs.
I was well one day, and sick the next.
My symptoms are that I am constantly VERY dizzy. Not as a dizzy spell, and not like vertigo, more like a sensation that I'm getting smaller and smaller and exiting the room.
Then I "snap to" and judging by my friends and families faces.....nothing actually happened. No ones looking at me strangely or anything. Then I feel my heart beating under my breasts (sort of in my colon) and then I end up in tears. Its a very frightening feeling.
I've been to 3 doctors so far and each diagnoses something different....from high blood pressure to middle ear infection and the latest TIA. I don't believe its any of those because NONE of their meds have changed the dizzy thing at all. Worst is I am so emotional. I cry for everything and its not menopause....I did that one years ago.
I've had my thyroid tested, thats fine. Next step is to have a blood test to see if my hormone levels are ok. Just working this by elimination. I don't have medical aid so everything costs me an arm and a leg.
Sadly you get those delightful souls who get tired of a usually well person, no longer being on top form. I've been told all kinds of things like "are you enjoying the attention?" HELL NO.
I enjoy being well and running around with my hubby and kids on the beach. I enjoy rustling up something delicious for my family...sewing...singing.....
gosh you name it I do it and love doing it.
I do NOT enjoy being off kilter constantly.
I do NOT enjoy being in tears over little.
I do NOT enjoy feeling about to faint in public places and meetings.
I do NOT enjoy having given up driving because I feel unsafe behind the wheel.
Anyway.....thats not what the blog was supposed to be about.
The thing that confirms I am mad is :-
With all of this going on in my life, I've signed up for a 12 week weight loss challenge with my sister. How mad is that?
At least I cant be dying right?!
Here are some of the benefits and details
Education on different topics about nutrition, weight loss and healthy living every week.
There will be weekly prizes and Grand prizes at the end.
They promise great Support and lots of fun
We get a weight loss coach
We get a goodie Bag to the value of R345 FREE
We get 3 Body assessments to the value of R300 each FREE
And free access to our on line tracking and monitoring system
They promise lots of fun!
So will I be well enough for this.....goodness knows?
But I am so sick of doing nothing because of the dizzy thing.
Tomorrow I go to yet another Dr but at least this one comes highly recommended from a brother in our congregation who had the exact same symptoms as me for ages. He heard about my current health issues and invited me over to hear his story - and I tell you - its one and the same except he got so bad (could have been his age and the fact that he is already sick with cancer) but he ended up in a wheel chair. He spoke of the same frightening feeling after each dizzy spell. He spoke of feeing weak. He spoke of feeling embarrassed at being in tears in front of his wife over absolutely nothing. He spoke of finding eating difficult....so do I. The art of chewing is exhausting.
Even so, this Dr got him walking again in 2 months. He said he is 95% better and even attended hall cleaning and worked. I'm hoping this bodes well for me because I'm not in a wheel chair. I am generally exceptionally healthy and well. These last few months have really been odd for me.
In the last 2 months I have had so little energy that I barely do anything...hence no blogs.
I have not even been able to keep my house work done. My sister has been a stalwart in helping keep my dogs bathed, house tidy and driving me everywhere I needed to be. My fs has dropped to an exceptionally low figure, but I haven't stressed...what could I do?
So instead of lying down and preparing to die (pun) I signed up for a weight loss challenge.
Today I did TWO THINGS and completed the tasks....yay for me *shaking head with a sigh*
One thing I did was crave eggplant. I didn't feel like them fried, neither did I feel like them cooked in a microwave, so I wandered if they could be put into a toaster and grilled?
Here is my experiment. Eek didn't realize my toaster looked so bad
I rubbed them either side with olive oil before popping the slices with skin on into the toaster.
They toasted just fine.
One toasted eggplant.
Next add some fat free cottage cheese.
Lastly add some rocket and tomato and you have a super healthy, super tasty snack for +-200 calories.
The next thing I did was to create a box for a toy I plan on sending Axel. The toy was a croquette stick and ball and I could not find a box to fit it ANYWHERE.
Started with a flat piece of cardboard.
Spent some time trying to figure out how to do this.
Finally got the hang of it.
In with the stick went a bunch of his favorite sweeties.
And all done.
And there you have it. Now I just have to post it to my darling little grandson whom I miss with all my heart.
So thats it folks...my life has boiled down to completing 2 simple tasks a day.....mind you today I completed 4. The other two include feeding my dogs, and doing dishes oh I forgot AND I swept a tiniest area and then had to sit down...energy spent.
Its ridiculous I was always 'MRS ENERGY" and I sooo hate being this weak.
Maybe tomorrows Drs visit will be just what I need.