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Week 6 ~ Embarrassed & Frustrated BUT not giving up!

Monday, February 11, 2013

Well "Sparkies" ,
I find myself right back where I started emoticon why? why? why?

How very frustrating and disappointing. I was doing well and was focused,,,, when a very emotional situation arose and unfortunately I turned to my bad habit ..... trying to suppress sad & conflicting emotions by eating "comfort foods". I just ate,,, even when I was not hungry,,,, tried to go for a walk or focus on something else but it all came back to putting something in my mouth. And yes, I have fallen,,,, but I have to take stock and learn from this,,, otherwise I will be doomed in repeating my mistakes. I have learned that eating all my favorite meals at once does not make me feel better....... that overeating is a temporary "fix" but has dire consequences to my health and to my emotional being.

[ not that it really matters but ........The situations? A funeral of close relative and then the wedding reception of my father in law (who lost his wife 2 years ago and now married my mother in laws best friend),,,, I went because he invited me and because I figured it would be the last time that I would see most of these people who I have known for over 25 years (most I had not see since I separated from my husband 2 years ago). Such is life,,,,, a constant change. ]

Am I sad about gaining all my weight back? Yes,,,, Am I mad at myself? Yes,,,, Frustrated? you bet! Am I losing hope? yup! hard to believe in yourself when you just keep failing! Am I going to quit? NO!

One of my Spark friends posted "Never let go of that positive attitude, 2013 is your year!!!" (thank you Jenncaba) And I think that is the key,,,, to keep positive,,,,,, and not let go of a positive attitude..... and YES, 2013 is my year!!!! It will be the year that my divorce will be done,,, it is the year that will be filled with happy memories,, it is the year that I will finally have the key of what works for me,,,,,,, where healthy eating is a habit for me,,, where exercise is the norm.

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    Great attitude Lily, you CAN do it! emoticon
    1766 days ago
    We move through life one choice at a time. It is great that you choose to see the positive. You will do this when you are ready. I used to work at encouraging smokers to quit. Statistically, it is rare for smokers to be successful at quitting on their first try. At that time, I believe the evidence showed an average of 7 quit attempts before success. I suspect similar evidence is found with weight loss. Please never give up the fight or your positive attitude. We can do this!
    1767 days ago
    Thank God that you can look at your situation and come up with an appropriate response. All the best to you. emoticon
    1767 days ago
    I have gained during this very stressful school year of caregiving at work and at home.
    But we can get this weight back off. I believe in you! You can do this again.
    You can and WIll succeed!
    1767 days ago
    I've gained the last couple of weeks too. Let's just put it in the past and start being awesome again from right now!
    1767 days ago
    Yes, pick yourself up and dust yourself off, give yourself MAJOR credit for doing so, and put one foot in front of the other and get back on that path that you want to be on. emoticon
    1767 days ago
    I'm so sorry to hear of the extreme ups and downs occurring in your life, and I know with complete understanding what it's like to turn to food in these situations. I'm just coming off my one month binge (and my "off the wagon" eating since mid-November, having gained lots of my weight back).

    You know this community is here for you, so lean or even fall, into this community.

    Say positive things to and about yourself when you look in the mirror, as what you see today can already be considered past. When you wake up tomorrow, say positive things about how you're going to treat yourself all day. It really helps me, I know.

    Best wishes. You can get back to healthy and strong!
    1767 days ago
    Sounds like a lot has been going on for you. You can get back on track. Make up your mind is 1/2 the battle. One day at a time, no regrets, and move on.
    1767 days ago
    Congratulations on your decision to stay positive.

    I have learned that when I am upset and eat myself into a semi coma, the person(s) I am eating about are going on with their lives. All I have done was waste a lot of time and energy on a situation I had no control over.

    Stay positive and focus on yourself in 2013. emoticon
    1767 days ago
    emoticon ,welcome back , doesn't matter where you've been, glad to see you back!
    1767 days ago
    wohooo... perfect attitudes. Go, you can do it!
    1767 days ago
    Good job! I know it is easy to give up after a bad day or week for that matter but getting back on the horse is what makes it feel so good.
    1767 days ago
    Congratulations on being able to share your experience here, you named and owned it and took responsibility for it, which are all positive steps. Really.

    This is by no means a quest for perfection and the fact that you are being honest with yourself and others is a huge victory.

    You are worth the effort and time that this takes! emoticon
    1767 days ago
    Setbacks happen but you will overcome them & reach your goals. Keep pushing! You can do it!
    1767 days ago
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