Well "Sparkies" ,
I find myself right back where I started
why? why? why?
How very frustrating and disappointing. I was doing well and was focused,,,, when a very emotional situation arose and unfortunately I turned to my bad habit ..... trying to suppress sad & conflicting emotions by eating "comfort foods". I just ate,,, even when I was not hungry,,,, tried to go for a walk or focus on something else but it all came back to putting something in my mouth. And yes, I have fallen,,,, but I have to take stock and learn from this,,, otherwise I will be doomed in repeating my mistakes. I have learned that eating all my favorite meals at once does not make me feel better....... that overeating is a temporary "fix" but has dire consequences to my health and to my emotional being.
[ not that it really matters but ........The situations? A funeral of close relative and then the wedding reception of my father in law (who lost his wife 2 years ago and now married my mother in laws best friend),,,, I went because he invited me and because I figured it would be the last time that I would see most of these people who I have known for over 25 years (most I had not see since I separated from my husband 2 years ago). Such is life,,,,, a constant change. ]
Am I sad about gaining all my weight back? Yes,,,, Am I mad at myself? Yes,,,, Frustrated? you bet! Am I losing hope? yup! hard to believe in yourself when you just keep failing! Am I going to quit? NO!
One of my Spark friends posted "Never let go of that positive attitude, 2013 is your year!!!" (thank you Jenncaba) And I think that is the key,,,, to keep positive,,,,,, and not let go of a positive attitude..... and YES, 2013 is my year!!!! It will be the year that my divorce will be done,,, it is the year that will be filled with happy memories,, it is the year that I will finally have the key of what works for me,,,,,,, where healthy eating is a habit for me,,, where exercise is the norm.