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thoughts on growing old....

Monday, February 11, 2013



I really enjoy sharing and being creative on these Blogs but today is a down day for me!

First my special NC sister's husband died 3 weeks ago and she needs me so much! We can't talk on the phone because she is crying so hard! And I can't go.

And about an hour ago my oncologist called because he is scheduling an emergency appointment following a CT scan for tomorrow when all had been going so well!

Momma said there would be days like this but now I wonder...

Right now I feel so much! And so much is ugly! I question why and wonder why I am so weak and why I can't be in two places at once...I want to be whole but wonder if that will ever happen again...and I want to blame something and there is nothing there.

It will be a long 24 hours until the clinic and I learned a long time go about a 1200 mile separation. But tomorrow when the air clears the way, I will be able to stop and think and when something is known, I know that I can handle it... that it is just the not being there and it is the not knowing!

But in the meantime why can't we stop it...

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  • PATRICIA441
    This too shall pass. May God give you the courage and strength to get through this hard bump in the road of life. Keeping you and your sister in prayer. Sending healing hugs. Pat
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  • AWESOMECHELZ
    Sometimes when we are in hell, all we can do is hang in there and rely heavily on our spiritual resources, whatever they may be. You have a lot on your plate and I hope you have a spiritual gift to help you ride out this tough time. May you be blessed and your sister and family during this time. emoticon Love, Chelsea
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