Monday, February 11, 2013
I've had an awful stomach ache for three days now. I think it's because my "works" are a little stopped up, but I'm not sure how to get it to go away. I've tried stretches, tea, yoga, pilates, slow exercise, fast exercise, pepto-bismol and alka seltzer... but nothing seems to help. It's kind of awful.
I'm plotting out a fun little calendar to use for "phasing" my exercise. It's something I've been thinking about for a long time because of the success Grace has had with it, and she out-right told me to try it on my wah-wah-boo-hoo blog on Friday. I was a little down on the whole game that day.
I briefly considered fasting one day a week. I thought about juicing, cleansing. I wondered about trying slim fast. I realized... I was getting desperate for absolutely NO REASON.
6/14/13 was a date I set myself. I picked it because it was a big day that stood out for me, but more than anything, I set it arbitrarily. When I chose my "goal weight" and "goal day" I had really no clue about what it might take to lose that kind of weight in 18 months. And now I'm acting like that's the day of some final test, a pass/fail situation.
Which is, of course, completely freakin' stupid. Some people can lose 100 lbs in a year. Some people can lose 5 lbs. I lost 80 - that's awesome! I have 35 pounds left to lose, but there's no deadline.
I'm 25. With luck, I'll live another 65 years. There is no deadline.
And I try not to stay down for very long, so now I'm pretty well over it. And of course, ready to start testing new things on my ever-present crash test dummy: me.
I'm going to start doing "phases" of exercise, wherein I focus primarily on strength training and cardio, alternately. The program I've been doing for the last month is a strength phase, being that I'm primarily doing ST with light cardio, and only 1-2 intense cardio days per week. I'm going to continue on with this for a total of 6 weeks of strengthening.
I'm also going to try something kinda different this week. I've read that the best "afterburn" comes from doing strength training, then cardio. So I'm doing my 40 minutes of ST, then adding 20 minutes of moderate cardio on my bike. I started that last night, and it seemed to go well.
On the 25th, I'll switch over to a cardio phase, where I'll do toning 1-2 days a week and intense cardio 4-5 days a week. During the cardio phase, I think I'll pretty definitely have to have a rest day on Sundays.
Last, but definitely not least, I'm going to take a good look at my eating. I've been in range ... most of the time... and that's got to get dialed in. I'm constantly telling people that you can't out exercise a bad diet, and that's apparently true with me as well. I've been maintaining because I'm building muscle... but also because I'm much, much more relaxed about going 200-300 calories over range a few times a week.
That's pretty dumb, especially when I know for a FACT that my "losing" range for intake is 1600-1700. I lose the most weight when I eat in that range. I know this, I just need to enforce this.
I'm also buying my HRM this week. I'm assuming I will learn LOADS from that, as well.
Anywho, this will be my new experiment for the next little while. Will it work? Maybe! Maybe not. But I'm not going to give up, and I'm going to try not to get frustrated. I can do SO many things now that were just a dream last year. I shop at Victoria's Secret, Old Navy and Gap now. Plus size clothes fit funny now. I get to go to the mall and try stuff on for fun now. I can kinda run! I can kinda dance! I can do planks and push-ups and wall sit for hours. I'm not the tiniest lady - I never will be - but I'm stronger and fitter than I have ever been.
The title of my page is not "Emma goes sluggy to skinny." This has never been about getting thin. I really think I forgot that. The title is "Emma goes fat to FIT," and that's what I'm doing. And fitness doesn't hinge on what the scale says. New reports say the BMI scale is wrong for tall people, my body fat percentage is declining, I can do longer, harder cardio, I have progressed from using a light resistance band to now lifting 8 lb weights. I am getting FITTER - that's what this is about.