Monday, February 11, 2013
I had a horrible dream last night and I didn't feel as though I could get out of it. I hate those!
You see, I have been gearing up to start my journey again, but since I've done this so many times, I feel like it's just a routine. When am I going to really make it stick? I mentally started about 3 or 4 weeks ago, went for my physical and talked to my doctor about 2 weeks ago and since then, I've been doing really pretty well. I've lost 7 pounds in less than 2 weeks and last week, I went to a medical weight control clinic and began getting a serious of B12 shots along with a few supplements. However, over the weekend, I just didn't have the energy like I wanted. I took a walk and we went places, but I really just didn't have the energy that I was hoping for. I didn't eat enough and I think that's because I was mentally aware that I wasn't being as active.
So, last night, I had a dream that I had gained back the 7 pounds plus more. I remember seeing myself in the mirror and horrified that I failed at my weight loss journey again and I was so miserable. I didn't feel like I could move and I was very uncomforable. I remember thinking in my dream that "I was feeling so good and was able to move so much better when I didn't have this weight on me (as little as it was)"... I can't imagine how good I would feel if I lost the weight that I really need to.
This morning, I'm geared up... again... still!!! I started my morning with ice water (which is such a hard thing for me to do) and planned my day/week really well. I'm excited to see how good I feel with more weight off... for good!!!
I'm a DONE girl!!!