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King of all Weight Yo-yos Abdicating the Throne

Monday, February 11, 2013

If you review my stay here the past few years, you will know that I am a King of all Weight Yo-yos with my weight constantly going down and back up again. This has been my track record for the last 23 years. I have blogged that I can trace the beginning of the weight climb to the birth of my second child, career growth and how I changed my priorities.

My starting weight was when I joined SparkPeople in 2010 was 335 pounds. Since that time I have yo-yoed to the 270 to 280 pound range numerous times and then back to the 300 to 310 pound range.

After another lost weekend of overeating, I had a self-realization session last evening concentrating on all the love ones I am disappointing and causing stress with my obesity.

The reasons that I am obese are:

• I cannot control my food addiction
• My lack of exercise
• I do not stay committed to any plan

After another lost weekend (Friday, Saturday and Sunday) of overeating and not enough exercise (Sunday at the gym on the treadmill for 3 miles in 51 minutes). This morning I weighed 305 pounds.

This madness will stop now.

For the next 3 months I will be on SparkPeople every day.

Barring illness, I will exercise every day.

I will track my exercise and weight daily.

I will post my successes and failures.

According to the “Experts” only 8 percent of all actually follow through on health and weight lost resolutions. I have been part of the 92 percent too long. I will join the elite 8 percent.

Instead of saying, “I’m going to do this,” or “I’m ready to do this,” my mantra is “I’m doing this”.

I will exercise that I enjoy, because I must stick with it. Currently I enjoy the treadmill and spinning. I will stay with these plus what Trainers at my gym recommend.

I will spend at least 30 minutes doing something that makes me breathe harder, that gets my heart rate up, every single day.

I will stretch for 10 minutes every day to reduce tension and anxiety. I will be physically and mentally flexible.

I will not think that “I’m going to get up every day at 4:30 a.m. so I can exercise for two hours”. To go from where I am to that is an unrealistic recipe for failure. Over the last 23 years, I have become the Head Chef of the health failure recipe.

I have considered having a surgical procedure done to assist me. Six of my friends – acquaintances have undergone surgical procedures and 1 more is planning to do it next month. Many of my SparkPeople friends that have had surgical procedure or are considering medical procedures like I am. Some that have had a surgical procedure have been successful and others have failed. It is out of my concern of failing after the surgical procedure that I do not want to pursue that course at this time.

I will practice mindfulness. Be in the moment, yesterday is history and cannot change and tomorrow is future. I will focus on what I am doing now and I will practice this all the time, anywhere.

I will get enough sleep. I mean 7 to 9 hours every night. The Experts say this will give me more energy and make me less likely to overeat.

The Experts also say to eat protein with breakfast every day since your body craves protein in the morning. So I will have protein every morning.

I do not have any of the health problems that come along with being obese. I will count my blessings every day and feel the experience of gratitude and the Almighty in my life. I will increase my compassion for others. I will increase my sense of well-being.

I will acknowledge the reality that I am obese.

When no longer obese, I will acknowledge the reality that I am fat.

When no longer fat, I will acknowledge the reality that I have to continue along the path I have created to remain this way.

I will look at myself in a full length mirror every day. I will not avoid or hide behind others in photographs. I must face me.
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  • MARIANNE9855
    if you are the king, I am the queen but I am looking forward to joining the 8% too.
    I am sure I am older than you and it took me losing my job before I could devote the time I needed to really look at things honestly and have time to exercise and go on sparkpeople multiple times a day.
    I still need a job but I am being careful that I apply for jobs with reasonable hours so I can continue what I'm doing when I get back to work (if ever but that is another story)
    Your blogs are a great find on spark people emoticon
    1386 days ago
  • MARYJEANSL
    I love the phrase 'Head Chef of the health failure recipe.' It certainly applies to me too, and probably many others. You definitely have a different recipe now, the recipe for success. Keep making it!
    1386 days ago
  • GGCHET
    Another really good blog. Why not give Living Lite a try. I am loving it and have tried so many other things. You can get a groupon and attend a Hypnotherapy Session very reasonably. I describe it a bit in my blogs. May work well for you:)
    1388 days ago
  • ANNALALOCA
    This really should be a featured blog (I clicked I like it). Very inspirational...you CAN do it...WE can do it!
    1388 days ago
  • SIMONEKP
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    1388 days ago
  • GEMLADYONE
    emoticon It works if you work it.

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    1389 days ago
  • LALAFLOWERS
    You can do this. You know you can. It's not easy, but it can be done. You've done it enough times to know.

    Great plan. You've got this. Keep it up!
    1389 days ago
  • GOOZLEBEAR
    Great blog, I needed to read this!!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1389 days ago
  • SUECHRIS50
    Simply put you took the words right outta my mouth!!
    1389 days ago
  • BARBIE176
    I love this blog. I wish you success in your endeavors to break the unhealthy habits of the past 23 years. I think the plan you have outlined is very achievable. I have started beginning my day with 15 minutes of positive affirmations and so far this has been working for me so I find it great that you are incorporating mindfulness in your plan. emoticon emoticon
    1389 days ago
  • POPSY190
    I do hope you can avoid the surgery, which does carry risks and is not always successful. I like to eat a lot and have found a plant based regime good for me - plenty of nutrients and always feeling full. Keep us posted with your progress. You are never alone here! emoticon
    1389 days ago
  • TIGGERJEAN
    "I must face me."

    WOW. This is such a powerful blog, Marty! You are so encouraging on my blog - but I know sometimes it's hardest to encourage yourself.

    You are going to WIN this round!
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    1389 days ago
  • BEATLETOT
    This is a fantastic blog. I clicked I Liked it! =) I know you can do this, Marty, you rock my face off!
    1389 days ago
  • MACMOM57
    Awesome blog. emoticon
    1390 days ago
  • OPTIMIST1948
    Addictions sometimes need psychological counseling to help you get over them. Please consider an appointment or two with a therapist before going through the surgery. It cant hurt.
    1394 days ago
  • SPUNKYDUCKY
    Congratulations on getting honest with yourself and committing to a plan! Your plan sounds fantastic! Better get some rewards ready because you are going to need them soon!
    1395 days ago
  • WLSGINI
    Marty, I LOVE, LOVE, LOVED this blog!!! I like the humor and honesty of what you wrote. I too do not have any health problems related to my weight YET. But the truth is eventually it will catch up to us if we don't stop and put the fork down now. So congrats on resigning your position as Head Chef of Health Failure and setting reasonable goals that will provide real (although maybe slower) long lasting results.
    1395 days ago
  • HICKOK-HALEY
    Why don't you start a team here. It might help you keep motivated, and help others who are also struggling. I'll join!
    1396 days ago
  • SPARKLISE
    You do not need the surgery, you just need consistency!
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    1396 days ago
  • IGSBETH
    You can do it!
    1396 days ago
  • SWAZY33
    Sounds like a great *no excuses will be accepted" plan! Stress and overeating do seem to go hand and hand. During stressful times...I crave the"comfort" of food too. It's something I struggle with daily but have gotten much better ...it's not easy...damn if it was...everyone would be in that 8%!...just keep telling yourself...you ARE worth the effort! (cause you are;)
    1396 days ago
  • ARCHIMEDESII
    Marty, I'm a firm believer that stress is a neglected aspect of weight gain. If a person could reduce their stress, they'd automatically reduce their waistline.

    Have you ever considered yoga ? No, you are not too big to do yoga. My yoga instructor worked with people of all ages, sizes and abilities. We all have some kind of limitation. A good yoga instructor can show you how to modify poses when you need them. Yoga can not only help increase your flexibility, it can also help you increase strength, stamina, endurance, coordination, balance and help a person get centered.

    Yoga is where I learned to be mindful.

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    And if you're not ready for yoga, how about Tai Chi ? That's another good exercise that will not only help you be more active, but it will help you to reduce stress too.

    You know I'm here for you !




    1396 days ago
  • BONOLICIOUS2
    Way to go Marty! This is awesome!

    I think where alot of people slip up is the whole "You have to do XYZ (run a marathon, eat nothing but steamed veggies, you fill in the blank) every single day for the rest of your life or you are a failure" mentality.

    You make good points here - 430 am 2 hour wake ups? Not for you. Certain workouts aren't for you. Every body is different and you have to find the workable solution for YOU. Even if that means surgery, or therapy, or working out later in the day, or ANYTHING as long as you are moving forward.

    Good luck sir!
    1396 days ago
  • FRANCIEVW
    Celeste B is right, you can do this Marty! Be that 8 percent and stamp your authority on it!
    1396 days ago
  • TATTER3
    You are an intelligent, alert, completely competent man and this is just another step toward your personal success. I'm joining you...my goal this week...now that I have been consistent with 30 minutes of daily walking and 8 to 16 glasses of water daily is to get 7 hours minimum of sleep every night. So far so good...but it's frustrating that I have to take it step at a time....I want to be perfect yesterday!
    Keep Sparkin'!!
    1396 days ago
  • PENNYSAVER2
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  • CELESTE_B
    Come on Marty! You can do this! Not every day is gong to be easy...but every day you have friends here that can support you on your journey.

    Big hug....
    1397 days ago
  • FROSTY99
    emoticon One day at a time, one bite of healthy food at a time, plan, plan, plan and keep healthy food on hand at all times!!!!

    Pat
    1397 days ago
  • AHTRAP
    Put down the crown and get to work. Looking forward to seeing the one way signs in your future blogs.
    1397 days ago
  • DEBBIEANNE1124
    Your excuses are pretty much the same as mine.

    You can do it Marty. Believe it.
    1397 days ago
  • KAYDE53
    Great plan! Don't get discouraged if you have little mishaps!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1397 days ago
  • SOFT_VAL67
    i have pretty well stuck to a plan for 10 months now and i was one of those, who said i cant stick to a plan
    we all slip up and i have and i will and so will you...but you will be successful
    you will find what works for you
    motivation can be found here and elsewhere and even within
    good luck to you and look forward to seeing how you are thinking and feeling soon
    1397 days ago
  • LJCANNON
    emoticon Look at it as a Job (it really sounds like that is what you are already doing). When I first started, I said that going to the Gym was my "Second Job" and I would be as reliable at the Gym as I was at Work. At the end of One Year, I would re-evaluate.
    emoticon You CAN Change your Future because YOU Are Worth It!!!
    1397 days ago
  • SYLPHINPROGRESS
    You sound as though you're ready to fulfill this contract you've made with yourself.

    If you continue to investigate weight-loss surgery, be fully aware that none of the procedures is magical. Each takes work, like any non-surgical method, forever after. I say this not to encourage or dissuade you, but only so that you keep your expectations realistic. The procedures are tools, aids, not cure-alls. Many people who fail -- whatever form "failure" may take -- do so at their own hands.
    1397 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/11/2013 5:46:51 PM
  • ALIHIKES
    Wow Marty what a powerful and moving blog. You set smart goals -- measurable, achievable, realistic. I believe you can and will be successful! emoticon
    1397 days ago
  • PIMPINELLAN50
    Sounds like you are having all your ducks in a row.You can do this! emoticon
    Have a great week! emoticon emoticon
    1397 days ago
  • CHUBRUB3
    You are and will do this Marty. I know it.
    I have had the lapband and it as a tool has helped me control my eating. But it is a tool and as you know me, I work it hard.
    I have discovered that eating Primal (marksdailyapple.com) or eating Paleo will give you amazing results without the cravings IF you can stick with it. Many people do and can and find it the best thing ever. If I had found it pre surgery I would of done that.
    However i have no regrets over what I have had done and what I have accomplished.
    You can and are doing this. YOU will succeed Marty.
    Believe it.
    Hugs,
    Angela

    1397 days ago
  • INFLATED
    • I cannot control my food addiction
    • My lack of exercise
    • I do not stay committed to any plan

    I am this way too.


    1397 days ago
  • KANSASROSE67
    Best wishes to you with your plan...which is the culmination of lots of years of preparation for this moment. None of that is wasted time, because you've been learning from every setback in order to be ready to succeed. It took me nearly 30 years to be ready, so I know where you're coming from! But it's totally possible...especially with the help and support of your Spark friends.

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    1397 days ago
  • NSTARSMITH
    You GO FOR IT, man!!! I, too, have yo-yo'd all my life - and I am pretty sure I have some years on you if not actual poundage. No more for me! Yeah for the Elite 8%! That sounds like an idea for a Spark Team ...?
    1397 days ago
  • LAURAAT
    Great blog, Marty! I know that changing my mantra from 'I need to' and 'I will' to 'I AM' it helped my outlook a whole lot.
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  • HOLLYM48
    I hear you and it is tough! But if it is possible, it is definately possible thru spark people! We will be here cheering you on every step of the jouney. It isn't easy but it is so worth it. WE are worth it!
    We just have to keep on fighting for it.
    Best of luck to you!
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    1397 days ago
  • CRYSTALJEM
    Focus on what you do right and keep doing it. Cheer your successes and put any failures down to experience. You not only can do this, you are doing this. If you can find a partner do so, even if it's only for a daily walk. Even a little company can make the difference between stopping and continuing. I'm cheering you on.
    1397 days ago
  • FRAN0426
    emoticon emoticon taking this one day at a time--you will become successful. Good for you starting an exercise program of 30 minutes each day. Much success on your renewed journey Marty.
    1397 days ago
  • DOODIE59
    Your plan sounds good, Marty. Can I say one thing for you to think about? I have a food addiction as well. Fighting my urges and cravings takes most of my waking energy. About 5 years ago I went to a naturopath (She'd been treating my children for food allergies). I underwent a cleanse and nutritional healing (vitamins, minerals, herbal support, etc) and felt miraculously improved in all ways, but the most important of which was that I no longer had cravings. I am not exaggerating when I say that it freed up hours a day to not be thinking about food all the time. What a criminal waste of a person's life! People who have been on antibiotics are often susceptible to yeast overgrowth in the gut. If this may be the case with you, it is something worth considering.
    All power to you in your quest for better health:)
    Deirdre
    One of the other benefits is better mental clarity ... not too shabby:)
    1397 days ago
  • -POOKIE-
    Excellent blog xx

    Here's to getting off our butt's and doing the right thing.
    1397 days ago
  • JUSTLIKEALICE
    I love this blog.mindfulness I think has everything to do with it.
    1397 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/11/2013 1:53:31 PM
  • LINDA!
    Great plans! You really can do this. I agree that doing the exercise you enjoy will make it more likely that you will stick with the program. I am sure you will do this.


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  • BOVEY63
    Awesome attitude and goals.! Here's to being on of the eight percent!
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  • ANATASHIKI
    I don't know about you Marty but for me emotional eating is a compulsion. so I couldn't do anything about it until I found another compulsion not eating related which is not smoking or worse , drinking. and the compulsive eating didn't disappear , it's just in a long leash.our main problem is probably eating and it's the most important if you ask me. I once lost over 70 pounds and that time I did exercise 2 hours /day. it's not realistic and it made me sick , so my plan is more down to earth now, 20 minutes cardio , 3 times/week ST. if I can do more , ok , if not , it's a minimum I can do when I'm sick or tired. I'm yo -yoing too since 2 years ago between 117 kg and 127 kg(how could I gain 7 kilos in 2 weeks it's a mistery). I lost almost all of them and I'm closing to 117 again. may I hope my plateau is defeated? we'll see. anyway , what I wanted to tell is that you must find some form of exercise you love or at least you like and with the food too , select some low calories food that you really like. another way that I don't recommend is being an emotional wreck like I am now and not wanting to ever touch food again(sorry , personal disaster now). the sleep thing works for me. if I'm tired I eat a lot more and I'm much hungrier. I got rid of the dreaded shifts (and a 3rd of my income emoticon ) and my cravings and hunger are much milder. so , happy about that.sorry for being so logorrheic. well, I wanted to say just make a good and reasonable plan for you and don't forget to treat yourself with kindness emoticon
    1397 days ago
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