Monday, February 11, 2013
If you review my stay here the past few years, you will know that I am a King of all Weight Yo-yos with my weight constantly going down and back up again. This has been my track record for the last 23 years. I have blogged that I can trace the beginning of the weight climb to the birth of my second child, career growth and how I changed my priorities.
My starting weight was when I joined SparkPeople in 2010 was 335 pounds. Since that time I have yo-yoed to the 270 to 280 pound range numerous times and then back to the 300 to 310 pound range.
After another lost weekend of overeating, I had a self-realization session last evening concentrating on all the love ones I am disappointing and causing stress with my obesity.
The reasons that I am obese are:
• I cannot control my food addiction
• My lack of exercise
• I do not stay committed to any plan
After another lost weekend (Friday, Saturday and Sunday) of overeating and not enough exercise (Sunday at the gym on the treadmill for 3 miles in 51 minutes). This morning I weighed 305 pounds.
This madness will stop now.
For the next 3 months I will be on SparkPeople every day.
Barring illness, I will exercise every day.
I will track my exercise and weight daily.
I will post my successes and failures.
According to the “Experts” only 8 percent of all actually follow through on health and weight lost resolutions. I have been part of the 92 percent too long. I will join the elite 8 percent.
Instead of saying, “I’m going to do this,” or “I’m ready to do this,” my mantra is “I’m doing this”.
I will exercise that I enjoy, because I must stick with it. Currently I enjoy the treadmill and spinning. I will stay with these plus what Trainers at my gym recommend.
I will spend at least 30 minutes doing something that makes me breathe harder, that gets my heart rate up, every single day.
I will stretch for 10 minutes every day to reduce tension and anxiety. I will be physically and mentally flexible.
I will not think that “I’m going to get up every day at 4:30 a.m. so I can exercise for two hours”. To go from where I am to that is an unrealistic recipe for failure. Over the last 23 years, I have become the Head Chef of the health failure recipe.
I have considered having a surgical procedure done to assist me. Six of my friends – acquaintances have undergone surgical procedures and 1 more is planning to do it next month. Many of my SparkPeople friends that have had surgical procedure or are considering medical procedures like I am. Some that have had a surgical procedure have been successful and others have failed. It is out of my concern of failing after the surgical procedure that I do not want to pursue that course at this time.
I will practice mindfulness. Be in the moment, yesterday is history and cannot change and tomorrow is future. I will focus on what I am doing now and I will practice this all the time, anywhere.
I will get enough sleep. I mean 7 to 9 hours every night. The Experts say this will give me more energy and make me less likely to overeat.
The Experts also say to eat protein with breakfast every day since your body craves protein in the morning. So I will have protein every morning.
I do not have any of the health problems that come along with being obese. I will count my blessings every day and feel the experience of gratitude and the Almighty in my life. I will increase my compassion for others. I will increase my sense of well-being.
I will acknowledge the reality that I am obese.
When no longer obese, I will acknowledge the reality that I am fat.
When no longer fat, I will acknowledge the reality that I have to continue along the path I have created to remain this way.
I will look at myself in a full length mirror every day. I will not avoid or hide behind others in photographs. I must face me.