still here. still alive. i've been sporadic with blog posts because, quite frankly, my life is debbie downer right now. in real life, i'm an ambitious, motivational, awesome girl - but right now, i'm struggling just to get through the day. it happens. i know. so i'll put all the negativity here in one post, ok? take it or leave it.

still getting nowhere on the job front. had a phone interview and follow-up in-person interview at the end of last week. i'm perfectly qualified for the job, but it's a little more supervisory than i'm used to - and i don't know, i just got the feeling that the guy interviewing me didn't take me seriously. i could be wrong. i haven't heard back on my status yet, but i'm not expecting much.

i heard back from my former boss, he's looking for jobs for me, but i guess he didn't have a specific one in mind, just wanted to see if i still needed work. it's just, with the way he contacted me, i figured there was a job opening. guess he just got the new job, felt bad about having to fire me, and wanted to see what he could do. i do appreciate the effort. most people wouldn't bother. he's good people. hopefully, he can come up with something - in the meantime, i'm applying for everything i can find.

for the record, i've applied for 283 jobs and had 13 interviews in the last 3 months. think i'm tired of this job search by now?


the lone positive news is that i *think* my unemployment claim went through. i should have applied for it months ago (i lost my job nov 8th), but to be honest - NJ's website made no sense to me, so i gave up. went back the other day, it told me to go to NY's website (since that's where i worked), and theirs not only made sense, but it was super easy. so i claimed my benefits today, but it doesn't tell me yet if i'm getting them for sure, or what i'm getting - but it would be a huge weight off my shoulders right now if it works out. as it stands right now (with no job and no money in the bank), i'd be looking at getting evicted within the next 6-8 weeks. not good. and with no money to get to and from interviews (at the very least, if i walk 1 1/2 miles each way to the train, a round-trip to the city is $4.50) - it's kind of hard to get a job, you know? hopefully i'll know for sure within the next few days. NY dept of labor, don't let me down!

oh, and being really broke is good for weight loss when you're a binge eater. no snacks in the apt that i want to binge on + no money to buy snacks to binge on = down 2.4LB since thursday. hopefully that trend will continue.