Today in my Spark Coach coaching session, I was encouraged to visualize myself 10 years from today. Who was with me, what was I like, what was I feeling and doing, where was I living? This one was hard for me because I honestly can't see what will happen 6 months down the road, let alone 10 years.

I am getting a divorce in a year or so. I don't know if I will be with anyone 10 years from now. I will likely have to move in June, so I don't know where I will be living. In a way, this visualization just brought up a lot of the uncertainty I am feeling into the forefront.

What I can see is who I want to be in 10 years. Strong, independent, confident, capable. Fit in a way that I don't even think about it anymore because it's all second nature. Enjoying many outdoor activities: biking, walking, hiking, roller-blading, skating, skiing, dancing, fun fitness classes. Enjoying food as I've always done, but not rich, overindulgent, rich, high calorie, fat-laden food, but good tasting, healthy, delicious fruits, vegetables, dairy and meats cooked with care by me -- with the odd dinner out with friends. When confronted with a buffet full of the first kind of food, I naturally gravitate towards the fruit plate or the vegetable plate, not because I need to watch my weight, but because it just tastes better to me.

I am going to make decisions based on what's best for me, without second guessing myself or thinking that I'm selfish to want what is best for me. I am going to sleep well every night, be happy and at peace with myself. I am going to love me for all my faults and strengths. I am going to be honest with my friends and family in my emotions and be open with them. No more walls! I see myself with a very active social life with all sorts of activities and friends to do them with. I see myself traveling, even if it's by myself. I see myself climbing the terraces of Machu Pichu.

I see myself as continuing to make goals and constantly trying and learning new things. I see myself as never letting fear conquer me or prevent me from doing something that I want to do.

Fear is not my enemy. It can be my friend when it warns me of relevant danger. It reminds me of a need to be careful and is not meant to incapacitate me. I see myself embracing my fear, thanking my fear and settling it into its proper place.

That is who I will be in 10 years. As I look back at my current self, I will tell myself that all the work, all the effort, all the twinges and aches and pains are all worth it. I will reap the benefits not only in physical health, but in mental health as well.

As one of the quotes in my vision collage says, "Let your new self EMERGE!"