Sunday, February 10, 2013
The SparkCoach assignment for me today was to figure out exactly why I want to be on this journey- what is the overriding factor in doing something that's very difficult at times.
The thing that popped into my head immediately and has been a theme for me for awhile is I want my life to be about more than this constant focus on, and obsession with food, my body and my relationship to all things similar. I used to journal a lot. I love to express myself in writing and it was therapeutic for me. After awhile though I noticed that almost every single day my journaling was about how I ate, what I weighed, how awful I felt about my body, etc, etc. I become so disgusted with that one obsessive train of thought I stopped writing.
I once read that if women put as much time and energy into issues, besides their bodies, that were important to them, the world would truly be a different place. The amount of wasted energy on body focus, which has led to hugely significant psychological issues in women*, makes me heartbreakingly sad. What have we done to ourselves?? **sigh**
So, that's my overriding reason in doing what I'm doing- to use my energy and focus to make the world a better place, and where my world is a peaceful one in which I give myself permission to love ME... So I can move on to better and CERTAINLY more interesting things!!!!
* All you guys- I love you too and know you have your own set of issues. Didn't mean to leave you out of this! If it fits for you too, my apologies. :)