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Enough wallowing


Sunday, February 10, 2013

Good February 10th to you. As you may have noticed I took a break. I didn't need to, actually things would have been better off had I not. Alas I fell off the wagon and the damned thing ran me over. I have been retired from the military for almost a year now and I must say that I am thoroughly disgusted with myself and the condition that I have allowed myself to get into. My body weight is up to 205 lbs and my BMI is 33.1. I am obese and I have been feeling sorry for myself and telling myself lies. Here is a short list...

- I am working harder than I ever have in my life I need to rest. -B.S. With the new stresses, strains and demands being put on me I need to be in BEAST MODE and working my ass off.

- All the new changes are stressing me so I need to be nice to myself and not add to my stresses. - B.S. Exercise only causes stress if I overdo it starting out, do it wrong and continue to do it wrong or if I just don't do it then bitch about how I look and feel.

- I quit using smokeless tobacco so I will eat more til I get over it completely. - B.S. I quit in August, it is time to get off my ass and put the damned fork down.

Enough is enough. I look like a walrus, I move like I am 90, I get tired from everything but eating and I feel like death. My self image is at an all time low and I am drowning it with alcohol and food. I have heard I need to be nice to myself, well I tried nice and you know what I discovered, about me anyway? F^&k nice, I don't have time for nice.

What I need is to make myself proud.

I don't need more sleep, I need a 2 mile run.

I don't need another plate of food, I need 2 more quarts of water.

I don't need a beer, I need an ab workout that makes me so sore that I lose my appetite.

I don't need to play Facebook games, I need an upper body work out that makes it difficult to type.

I don't need to sit around and relax, I need to bring the pain to my legs til I shake when I am on them.

Less pizza, more salad, less beer, more water, less computer time more home gym time, less all around B.S. time and more quality ME time. So I am back. I am not sure how much of a motivator I will be unless this blog motivates you. I will NEVER put any of you down. All of these harsh words are for me, they are not meant for anyone else. They are from ME to ME. Well folks, here I am and here I go.









Let's do this...
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-POOKIE- 2/11/2013 1:55PM

    Good blog.

Welcome back and here's to just getting ourselves into gear.

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SOFT_VAL67 2/11/2013 1:53PM

    Good to see you back...Facebook? Beer? Not working out?? Are you sure I didnt compose this blog???
Sounds like me for sure....
Since breaking my foot a month ago, I have totally fell off the wagon, maybe I was on the other side from you...
But at least you are back here and deciding to put a stop to it before it goes any farther...
Just take it slow to start so that you do it right...
Stay in touch....and oh by the way, teach me this ab workout that makes you so sore??? I need that!!! emoticon

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LAURAAT 2/11/2013 9:46AM

    I can totally relate to this blog. Everyone says to be nice and love yourself, and I agree, that's important. But sometimes you need to look at yourself and say, Ok self, No more nice guy! It's time to buckle down, and get this done!

Glad to see you are back, and determined as ever! We can do this, if we keep fighting together. emoticon emoticon

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KJDINSC 2/11/2013 9:26AM

    Hey Boe! Welcome back! --KJD
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TERRIPAL1 2/11/2013 8:07AM

    Nice blog, now show us what you got, and you motivated me ,love the line of not being able to type lol!

Thanks and you can do it!

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GARDENCHRIS 2/11/2013 7:04AM

    that motivated me!!! emoticon

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CHUBRUB3 2/10/2013 8:02PM

    BRING IT ON!!
Alright you laid it on the line now move your A$$ Mister!
You do inspire me so show me what you got.
Hugs,
Angela


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