Sunday, February 10, 2013
Well thanks to Blizzard Charlotte I have been off line and way out of control with eating. I've been cooped up in the house since the storm started, alone except for the many snacks I decided to bring into the house when I went to the grocery store. Boy did I snack, Potato chips my vice. dip. ice cream(didn't even enjoy this) alcohol, beer, cheese. processed lunch meat a snickers bar etc. I did not cook at all Friday or Saturday because I didn't feel like it and I was going out of my mind not being able to get out of the house( my front door was literally stuck shut because of the accumulation of the snow and it would have taken me 15 minutes to get from the back of the house just to clear off the front steps).
You would think that this Buffalo girl (born and raised) would be able to handle this mess and I admit I felt pretty bad because when I lived at home we expected weather like this and we dealt with it, had no choice we got out, shoveled and did what we had to do. Never before did I feel so Immobilized (so closed in and helpless) along with the boredom and loneliness that is what caused me to eat.
This storm has made me come to the realization that:
#1.Loneliness, Boredom and feeling helpless (shut in) is my triggers to eat and to eat unhealthy
#2. They also cause me to lose motivation to do anything else, cook, clean etc
#3. Not being able to Spark/Talk to some one, communicate caused me to fall to an all time low
#4. I also realized how out of shape I am when I was able to get out and shovel, my future MIL was out there helping me and she had more stamina then I did and she's almost 20 years my senior(so embarrassing).
Well we were hit hard this time around and it's going to take days before we are able to get back to some kind of normal. In the mean time I am going to reflect on this experience and how it made me feel and try to develop some lessons to help prepare me to deal with these triggers and not sabotage myself if something like this were to happen again.
p.s. I also realize that this type of weather along with the poor economy in Buffalo; In my opinion is the reason why there is a high percentage of obesity, (not being able to get out and move because of the weather and how depressing it makes you feel) as well as heavy drinking (lots of alcoholism, access to liquor, (plenty of stores to buy it from 7 days a week, it is not considered a dry town). ( most of the people I know, including family members back home are dealing with 1 or both of these issues).....