Sunday, February 10, 2013
Well I have never written a blog before. Not totally sure what I think about the idea. It seems like I am keeping a diary but instead of having a tiny little lock on it and tucking it under my mattress I am advertising it for the world to read. Not that this will keep my most secret thoughts but still my thoughts. But who knows maybe no one will my boring old thoughts anyway.
Today is a new day, a fresh start, a clean slate. I am tired of hiding behind this person that I am not really. Tired of feeling my fat rub together. Tired of sweating because I am so heavy. Tired of being tired because my body is carrying an extra 115lbs. Tired of not being able to chase the kids without feeling like I was having a stroke. Tired of wishing I could accomplish my dreams. Tired of wanting to hike Iceberg Lake but knowing that I can not hike that trail carrying this extra 115lbs. Tired of feeling like climbing the stairs with the laundry is Mount Everest. I want to be me, I want to be happy, I want to just be true to my heart of hearts.