Sunday, February 10, 2013
It's not a question of will power. I could easily stick to liquid protein meals only for the final 4 days of my 6-week program. But the first day after my liquid runs out is Valentine's Day. And there is a special shrimp dinner at our club that I want to attend. I know eating a full dinner like that--even though it's healthy--is too much for my stomach to handle after 6 weeks on only liquid. So yesterday I started a gradual re-feed along with my liquid meals. I began with 6 mini pretzels yesterday. Today I'll add a half cup of dry Cheerios. Tomorrow a banana, next day an egg, etc. So by Thursday, I'll be able to enjoy my Valentine's Day dinner and not become ill from the shock to my system. I'm still stuck at 98 lb. gone and the scales aren't budging. Added to that, I've had trouble going to the bathroom for 3 days now in spite of extra fiber and stool softeners. Constipation is a problem with liquid protein meals, but I'd had that under control with the fiber and stool softeners until now. I'm drinking extra water too, so something should ease up soon. Through this past 6 weeks, though, I've decided not to use the liquid meals as an occasional method to bump up my weight loss. Originally, I'd planned to do this for a short term every 6 months or so. But now I've decided to just stick with the healthy eating plan for the rest of my life--regardless of where my weight is. I am thankful I had the liquid meals last year to help me get beyond the plateau I'd been stuck on for 4 months. And I've been happy with the losses this time too, although they weren't as dramatic as the losses I had last year. But I need to stop treating my meals, whether liquid or solid, as a method of losing weight. My meals need to be simply a method of nourishing my body in a healthy manner; the weight can look after itself. If I make healthy choices and limit the portion size to healthy amounts, the weight will eventually stabilize at a healthy level. It may take longer; it may not. Either way, I know it will take at least a couple more years to reach a healthy weight. But those years will pass anyway, regardless of my weight. And in the meantime, I need to focus on living--not so much on the fuel I take in to continue living. Many of you probably already know this, but I guess I'm a slow learner. It's not earth-shaking news, but until now I haven't internalized it. It's finally getting through to me. We must eat to live--not live to eat. In the meantime, I'll keep coming to SP for my personal daily Spark; without this site and all of you who post here, I would never have come this far. And as for my goal of 100 lb. off by Valentine's Day. At this point, it doesn't really matter if I hit that "magic" number by Thursday or not--I'll hit that number soon, and then I'll hit 125, 150, 175 and even possibly 200! Because my body will be taking in less fuel and burning more. My losses may go more slowly than many people, but they will continue on a downward trend. And no matter how long it takes, each day I will be becoming healthier and more fit. One baby step at a time. So I invite you all to make the journey with me. Stick with it for the long haul. It's all worth it. WE are worth it.