Sunday, February 10, 2013
I need to stop being a perfectionist. I can drive myself nuts if I am not doing something 100% perfectly, especially when it comes to working on my weight loss journey. For example, I completely stress out over tracking my food even though it is not difficult and all research points to how much it really helps with weight loss efforts. Yet I resist it if I cannot do it 100% perfectly every day. If I can allow myself to be less than perfect at it, say I journal 90% of the time, and be okay with it, I might be more consistent at it in the long run. I know I get very motivated when I have a new journal or notebook to write in but as soon as I start having to erase and cross out things, I see it as a failure...why, I have no idea. All I know is it's almost like an excuse: "If I can't do it right, I won't do it at all" and therefore when my weight loss efforts don't show, I blame lack of tracking but I don't blame myself - - I blame the particular journal or the way I track or something. It's hard to explain here, but it makes sense in my head.
So - my game plan is this: I will track here on Spark aiming for my calorie range with food and 10,000 daily steps for fitness. I commit here and now to using as many of the resources available to me here as I can, including SparkCoach, every day until I get it right. Notice I said 'until I get it right'...meaning, I have a lot to learn and with that, there will be mistakes, and I have to accept that as part of the plan. I have to accept that I won't do it 100% perfectly every day. I have to accept that I will fall down now and then, I won't be motivated every day, I will give in and have that stupid cookie when I know I shouldn't...and all of this is OK because I am human and not perfect. I have to learn to love myself as I am, flaws and all, and forgive myself when I need to and praise myself when I can and treat myself as well as I can because there is only one me and I AM WORTH IT!