Shame or Accountability
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Last night I removed my shared food tracker off of my Spark page. I was embarrassed of what I ate yesterday, which seriously I'm not sure HOW I ate so much. I mean not figuratively but literally I'm not sure how it all fit. LOL.
When I woke up this morning I realized that the thing that I love the most about Sparkpeople is the fact that there is extra accountability. I mean it's not that I think there are people out there policing my food tracker, or really people that care about it at all. But IF someone stumbles upon it, I feel I should be as proud of what I am eating as I can.
However; I am human and if I just ate perfect all the time that wouldn't be a very good representation of true life either. I mean I did eat like that for almost a year, and I don't know how I did it. I have no idea how I went without "bad" food for so long. There really is NOTHING wrong with having a treat, or a TON of treats like yesterday.
I know I really should practice some moderation but, I shouldn't be ashamed of anything I do. Sure I look back on it and am a little disappointed in myself, but it was MY action. I have to own up to, move on and hopefully learn something from it.
In all reality, even though I do have occasions of over indulgence I am still ending the weeks with large deficits and most importantly I am learning to live in THIS world. This world of good and bad food, this world of indulgence and I am learning to find the balance of health and living.