Sunday, February 10, 2013
The 4-mile push from yesterday was simply amazing. No better word for it. There is truly nothing like the feeling you get when you feel rewarded for the efforts you put into something. For me, I was rewarded with a genuine feeling of accomplishment after yesterday's training run. It was the "hard" run of the week and I was a bit apprehensive about it because of the roughness from the previous week's "hard" run. I had made my plan, I stuck with it, no self-sabotage the night before with any wine, I got decent sleep and I rocked my run :)
To me the feeling of pushing myself beyond what I already know I am capable of is something I crave nowadays. I'm learning how to not fear failure, but to rather learn from it. One of my favorite quotes reads "A life without risk is no life at all." If I don't risk failing, then I'll never know if I could do it or not. I would much prefer to try and fail, than to live with always wondering what could have been.
This particular run challenges a part of me that I don't get the chance to bring out too often. I have to run it above what I already know I can do. I take it one mile at a time and the chance of me not finishing that mile without having to stop are great. I look at the potential of having to stop as my breaking point. I've gone as far and as hard as I'm able to go....or as far or as hard as I think I can go.
I've learned that when I get to that point of starting to wonder if I can keep going on is when the greatest work is being done. That is the time where my growth is coming from. Growth doesn't always feel good. It's uncomfortable, it's hard, it's all of these feelings that are not normally present in my day to day life...and I love it now.
Don't be afraid of that ick feeling, as I call it. That's the inner you telling you that you're doing something unusual, and it's listening. Find the push in your life and push it with all you've got. It's so worth it.