It is the start of my 7th week of "making a new me."
When I began this life changing journey, I was scared.
Scared that I would fail...
Yet, there was also a sense of excitement.
Something felt different this time.
Finding SparkPeople, reading success stories, reading blog posts, seeing that people were fighting the same battle, I felt an expectation that I would succeed IF ONLY...
But, isn't this the way it always is?
You start out with what you are going to eat, how many days a week you are going to exercise, you write everything down, you have a PLAN!
But, after you lose a few pounds, it's not quite as exciting anymore. You are finding excuses for not exercising. You don't want to write down that you ate a half of a bag of Skittles (yep, that's my kryptonite!), you really dislike fruits and vegetables so why can't you just eat macaroni and cheese instead?
Oh snap it's like this:
I AM making a new me.
I still dislike most vegetables and fruits.
I find that if I can just get up and get started, I don't mind doing my exercises.
And, having been under the weather this week, I didn't exercise and I wasn't great on food choices although I never went over my calorie limit (okay, I don't count my skittles
I didn't get on the scale at all this week until today because I was worried that I would have gained.
I DID NOT.
I thanked God for helping me through the past week, keeping me on track, and showing me that I have made changes. Small ones, maybe. Nevertheless, I am changing.
Changing my mindset.
Changing my food choices. Although, yes, I still have cravings.
Changing my patterns.
I still suffer from depression, still have low self-esteem issues, but I am making those small daily improvements that will lead to a healthy weight and hopefully raise my self-esteem and lessen my depression. Therefore, my long term results will be staggering!
I WILL be that beautiful, sparkling woman I know is hidden inside this chubby, depressed body!