Sunday, February 10, 2013
...rhymes with witch.
Back in August, I thought I was ready to take on losing the weight I found. But I really wasn't.
So after a couple of months of "trying", I realized my issue wasn't will power, but rather that I was eating my emotions. In 2010, I had a series of devastating incidents happen: my cat that I had for nearly 15 years died, my disabled mom came to visit for Thanksgiving but had a fall, broke her hip and ended up staying here for several months in a facility where I had to report her being neglected/abused. Then, I found out my Aunt had brain cancer. Then, in the beginning of 2011 I found out an extremely upsetting family secret: my dad, who I had thought died of a heart attack in 1996, actually killed himself. All these things happened within 4 months of each other. And even though I have a loving, supportive partner, even he couldn't stop me from the emotional eating.
Once I admitted to what was eating me, I decided to take a break. To not even THINK about losing the weight and get "right" in my head first. Now this didn't mean I'd eat whatever I want and go on a binge fest, it just meant that I'd put my emotional needs first by doing a bit of soul searching and seeking out a therapist. I realized that if I didn't deal with the issues that made me gain the weight back, that I'd never lose it. And, if I did, it would only return if the issues weren't resolved.
Am I 100%? No. But I am ready to tackle losing the weight, and my therapist agrees. I decided to use the SASS Yourself Slim plan by Cynthia Sass as a guideline. I actually have the book from when it was called the Cinch! plan, I bought it when I read an article of hers in a magazine and was just looking for food ideas to spice up my diet. This was before the weight issues returned.
There are many things I like about Cynthia and her program. First, she's an RD and also has her Master in Public Health. So she knows her shtuff. I also like that she takes a whole food, holistic approach to weight loss and eating. Finally, I like that she has a whole chapter tackling emotional eating that includes exercises to work through it.
Perhaps the hardest part is the 5 day fast forward, which I'm currently on day 2 of. It's a not mandatory part of the program, but I felt my body needed a reset so I decided to do it. That said, I'm already sick of Raspberries...
Anyway, I hope all is well with my fellow sparkers. Have a great Sunday!