Sunday, February 10, 2013
Inspired by SHERYLDS blog today, entitled "Push Your Tush - Anything Can Happen" (which is full of wonderful inspirational quotes)
I'm thinking of getting a tattoo that says "oui je peux" (yes I can, in French). I read it and I hear the voice of my now 19-year old son who would let nothing stop him hen he was a toddler (walking at 7 months, on a two-wheel bike by the time he was 2) from trying first, not just wanting to and letting people tell him he couldn't. Where does that attitude go as we grow up? He still has it to a great extent, I guess because we always encouraged him to think for himself within safety boundaries. But for myself, I've always been a cautious, preventive kind of gal, for as long as I can remember.
In fact, that's the thing about me that my Mom appreciated the most, the fact that she could put me in the yard in my Sunday finest playing in the mud, and I wouldn't get dirty. The fact that she didn't have to worry about me, I could take care of myself, she could focus on my older brother and sister (who were closer in age and likely to get into trouble).
However, through all that I also became the sedentary person I favour, the reader, the writer, the thinker and planner. None of those things are wrong, but it's the exclusion of the other: the swimming lessons, or dance lessons, or skating lessons. Those things I wanted to do but there was no longer any money to pay for a third.
I realized in reading SHERYLDS blog that, for me, part of this journey is about all of that too, about wanting to go beyond. I learned my boundaries at a very young age (and I know my parents didn't intend for it to turn out this way!), and I've carried them around with me for a very long time. Illness has just reinforced the caution, the wariness of trying. So that's part of what I'm trying to shake off.
So I'll finish by quoting SHERYLDS, who finishes her blog with
"Do something amazing"