Sunday, February 10, 2013
Well, our cat of 16 years started looking really bad, and we knew he had something in operable - a possible intestinal lymphoma, but he had been hanging on for years. I was able to give him lots of comfort care Thursday night, Friday night and then all day Saturday until he passed on Saturday night. My eating was up though - when I went for frosting out of the can, I knew something was whack with my eating.
The nice part is that in the comforting of the cat, there were some experiences of profound peace. I'm choosing to take that peace and the gratefulness for that cat into my remediation.
I suspect I'll do lots of tapping (EFT) as well, to get past former experiences of failure, and past some of the old rhythms where things go well and then fall off.
This cat was a people cat, a very loving cat, and a cuddly lap cat. On Saturday, he seemed to know when I was petting him as he vibrated as if he had engaged his purr on a soft level. That was quite a gift from that cat. There were times when I felt the same comfort as when he was in my lap - we had some exquisite times. I had taught this cat to come when called (well, come in cat-like fashion), and this cat taught me how to be patient. I use the story of how he listened to the squirrel yelling at him in perfect zen calm to describe self-control/internal peace often - that happened during times when I had him trained to stay in the back yard with me. He came into our lives when my youngest was 3 years old, so he has been a part of the family for a long time.
Our younger cat is doing okay, he seems to be hanging close and tolerates more petting than usual. My son had prepared himself years ago when the cat was sick, and skyped a bit, yesterday. For my daughter in her first year of college, it will be a little rougher when she comes home, just because it will be weird. He was a great cat - came to the door to see who was coming, would come out and be social when company was around, picking someone's lap at a party. Walking under me EVERY time I did cat-cow (yoga move), I mean every time! He was some inspiration for me in a guided imagery and music experience as well.
It's nice to have the kind of bond that we had - it's nice to bond with animals so intensely.
Have a good week.