This update should have been posted on Friday, but I was too busy, sorry.
Hypnotic Gastric Band book received, and read, on Monday 21st January. Spent the next 10 days learning the Havening technique and practicing the four golden rules.
CD listened to on Thursday 31st January
Listened again on Tuesday 5th February.
Weighed in Friday 1st February 179lbs
Second weigh in Friday 8th February 176lbs a loss of 3lbs
This surprised me! There had been the large slice of cake, eaten with Chicchantal when we were walking, and a smaller one the day previously when we were in Epping forest, an Indian takeaway, with mushroom fried rice and butter chicken, plus a keema naan, though admittedly eaten over two days, plus, it was taking a while for me to acknowledge the full signal. I could point to a couple of meals where I knew I was full, but was enjoying the taste so much that I went troughing on!
And any exercise that week was minimal.
BUT..... Despite all the trauma and anxiety about my cat, there had been no comfort eating!!!
Not because I was being Ďgoodí but because I genuinely didnít feel the need, in fact the thought disgusted me. No comfort drinking either!! Usually any excuse would be grabbed for a beer. Not a single one, other than the one I had in the restaurant while waiting.
My food tastes are changing too. My favourite muesli, full of nuts and fruit, I no longer enjoy it. The raisins and sultanas are too sweet! I will have to change to a variety with just nuts. I found myself wanting to put extra vegetables into my casseroles too, and eating them first, and for the first time ever, Iím often eating five a day without having to force them in. (Not every day, that is too regimented and not the Paul McKenna way,
So I think I can safely say that itís working for me so far.
Do not kid yourself, it is not either a magic wand or a quick fix, it takes a surprising amount of hard work!
It is not easy to break away from the Ďdietí mentality, to me weight loss = starvation. To be eating Ďnormalí portions is terrifying.
It is not easy to eat foods because you like them! Normally I would be trying to exercise off that takeaway. The sirloin steak I had on Friday, with mushrooms and tomatoes, well, Iíd be searching out the least calorific way of cooking them. To have mushrooms fried in garlic butter, even a little bit, is again terrifying. Not estimating the calories in it even more so!
Eating very slowly, chewing every mouthful 20 times, and eating without distraction is not easy either. There is the time constraint, forcing oneself to eat slowly when you have a bus to catch, leaving it in the end because youíve run out of time. Knowing itís growing colder and less appetizing with every bite, wanting to stuff it in because youíre hungry, itís not easy to sit there slowly chewing. It has to be eaten without the TV on too. No distractions, concentrate on the food. I always watched the news. When I slipped off the path last time, it was the first thing to go, but that leads to mindless eating, youíre not aware of how much youíve eaten.
Last but not least, stopping when youíre full! I try to put less on my plate, and in a couple of weeks I will be able to gauge my new portion size better, but everyone hates wasting food. Especially when youíre enjoying it, but the Ďjust that last mouthfulí mentality has been the downfall of many a dieter. Including me! In the beginning, small portions feel like deprivation, you're eyes tell you it's not enough, so itís better to have too much than too little. I KNOW this is temporary, another fortnight and Iíll know that I wonít eat it and cook less, but for the moment, I have to tell myself firmly that my stomach is NOT the alternative to the bin!
This has turned from a quick into a long blog! I probably wonít weigh in now for a fortnight, but Iíll do another update when I have something to report.